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Man, I just spent about an hour reading all my old emails between my UBC supervisor and myself.

I just logged on to that email to get info about an old account, why the hell did I decide reading all that crap was a good idea? I feel physically sick now.

Seriously. If I were to ever rank all the relationships I’ve ever had on a scale from “unhealthiest” to “healthiest,” that one would probably be the low point on the “unhealthiest” side.

That was not a fun time.

BRB, gonna throw up.

Claudia’s Top Ten Reasons Why Round II of Grad School is better than Round I of Grad School

The semester is officially* OVER! We shall not discuss the Multivariate Analysis final. Instead, it’s time for a very important list.

Claudia’s Top Ten Reasons Why Round II of Grad School is better than Round I of Grad School (ordered from least important to most important)

10. I was excited to move to Calgary.
I didn’t give a crap about Vancouver when I moved there. UBC was the only school that accepted me, and so that’s where I went. Location didn’t really matter. This time I had a choice (sort of (and it was a hard one)), but I pretty much knew as soon as I was accepted at U of C that Calgary would be a cool place to live and that I wanted to move there.

9. I “fit in” here.
This isn’t too big of a deal to me, but it’s nice to be around people who are actually interested in the same stuff as I am, school-wise. When I was at UBC, I was the ONLY one in the quantitative psychology division of the department, and thus was kind of isolated. Here, we’re all together in the same program, which is nice.

8. I’m older now.
I GOTS TEH WISDOM!!!1!
Seriously though, I think being in grad school at 27 instead of 21 makes a huge difference. This is the most cliché thing ever, but I feel like I’m mature enough for grad school this time around. (And probably would have been at 23 or 24, too, but I was busy doing other things then. Like more undergrad.)

7. I actually have a solid math background now.
Well, as solid a math background as I can have. Surprisingly, a solid math background is helpful in statistics. Who would have guessed?

6. I actually give a crap this time.
I did NOT give a crap last time. Not one little itty bitty crap.

5. I’ve been through all this nonsense before and thus know I can do it.
There were a few times at UBC where I was positive I was not going to be able to make it through because I didn’t think I was the type to be able to complete and defend a thesis. But now I know!

4. It almost never rains here.
It almost never iraining in Vancouver. As you can tell by how far up this is on the list, weather was a major downside to Grad School Round I.

3. I get along with my supervisor here.
REALLY.
DAMN.
IMPORTANT.
NOT.
EVEN.
KIDDING.

2. I like what I’m doing now.
I guess I liked quant psych too, since I was practically doing a stats degree, but now it’s ALL ABOUT THE STATS, not just their application to psychology. And I’m just so damn happy to finally be doing JUST STATS, not stats mixed with some other crap because I’m too chicken to just do stats.

1. I have a reason for being in grad school this time.
I wasn’t quite sure what I was going to do once I finished grad school back at UBC. Teach? Maybe. Work for the Census Bureau? Maybe. Who knows? But now that I KNOW I’m good at teaching stats and enjoy doing so immensely, that’s given me a very solid reason for being back at grad school. And that’s probably more important than all the other items on this list combined.

 

*Well okay, I still have to invigilate exams on Monday, but that’s easy.

SOUL DESTROYER

For my presentation* in my seminar class, I’m basically presenting some of the main results of my MA thesis. This has required me to dredge up this old notebook from way back when.

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This notebook brings back bad memories.

This notebook brings back thoughts of UBC.

This notebook brings back thoughts of how, every morning, I would dread going to campus with every fiber of my being.

This notebook brings back thoughts of how I would have a panic attack every Thursday because Thursday was the day I was supposed to meet with my supervisor.

This notebook brings back thoughts of how much I eventually stopped caring about school—something I hate admitting even now.

This notebook reminds me that I lost two years of my early twenties to misery, fear, dread, and depression, among other things.

This notebook brings back bad memories.

Aaaaaaaand now I’m sad.

 

*You may be asking, “if this brings back so many bad memories, why the hell are you doing your presentation on your old thesis results? Because the presentation is focused more on our presentation skills rather than the content, so it was recommended that we just use some results/ideas that we’ve come up with in the past and focus on the “presenting” part rather than try to come up with something new.

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A year ago…

I defended my Master’s thesis.

That’s all I feel like saying today.

Eight Days Left, Half Way There

Hey, I formally graduate with my MA tomorrow. Snazzy.

That is all. It’s been a crappy day.

I love this school already

I don’t know how many of you guys follow Piled Higher and Deeper, a comic by Jorge Cham that is the most accurate portrayal of graduate life I’ve ever seen*, but they’re making a live-action movie of it and it’s screening here at UWO on the 23rd.

How freaking cool is that?!

Also, I’m TA-ing PHIL 2020,  Basic Logic, class this semester, which is pretty snazzy considering we have to pass a logic competencey exam in our first year of PhD and this will do for a good refresher. Shout-out to Dr. O’Rourke for being an amazing teacher and making logic accessible to me, someone who had no intuitive grasp of proofs prior to the course.

Yay!

*examples from UBC: trying to teach correlation to undergrads, explaining what you’re studying, emailing, and “this might as well have been a screenshot of my compy

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OH THANK YOU COSMOS

HOLY SHIT IT’S OVER.

I successfully defended my thesis this afternoon. Received a nice high grade and was told it was PhD-level work.

Relief level: beyond belief.
Sanity level: depleted, but recharging slowly.
To-do list for the next few days: absolutely nothing, except incessant Fallout playing.

My revisions are limited to typos and a few additional references to check out, then I’m set to turn it in to Grad Studies and get it out there.

I’m going to go do something mindless for awhile. Because I finally can.

Longer entry on thesis conclusion to come later, promise.

Jitters vs. Insanity

Kill me now. I honestly don’t know if I’ll make it through tomorrow.

Party at Claudia’s

Anybody want to come to a party at my house tonight? We’ll be talking about structural equation modeling. Model fit, in particular.

My poor mother will have to undergo three semesters’ worth of math and stats in about half an hour so she can be caught up on my research
to follow my defense presentation enough to be able to ask questions.

The fact that she agreed to do this is one of like five billion reasons why I love her.

Anyway, you all should come. There will be a huge whiteboard and a lot of lambdas.

Be there or be square.

A Wild Thesis Appears!

Thesis = done.

It shall be turned in tomorrow.

Right now I’m going to not do anything productive (read: play Fallout and not work on my defense slides) and maybe clean.

Due to yesterday’s events, my mom shall be coming up here tomorrow.

Thank god.

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In This Blog: My Data Look like a Napkin Swan

Seriously, standardized root mean square residual? Seriously?

This pattern makes absolutely no sense. It’s pretty, but it makes absolutely no sense.

I feel like this plot should be on Maury or something. “When Bad Patterns Happen to Good Data.”

I’d totally watch that.

June 22nd

A month from now, I will be defending my thesis.

Scared all to hell.

Yeah.

I feel crappy

Solution: apartment temperature cranked to 78 degrees, Top Chef, making pretty graphs for my thesis, and not going to campus.

Why isn’t there a MyLifeIsPathetic.com yet?

Nostalgia, go away

I am so ridiculously homesick right now it’s scary.
I’m a solitary person, but I’m not a fan of being completely alone for months on end.
I’m tired of this dumb thesis, I’m tired of this dumb city, and I just want one day free of anxiety attacks.
I’m also freezing cold right now and can’t concentrate.

Is 2011 kicking my ass? It’s certainly trying to.

Sorry my blogs suck.

Sorry I suck.

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I don’t even care anymore.