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100,000

I hit 100,000 words in Ghost Town Realty today!

I know that’s still basically nothing as far as an impressive word count goes, but…

a) I have no idea how much more I’ve got to go in the story

b) Once I get all of it out, there will of course be editing anyway, so whatev

c) This is by far the most excited I’ve been about working on one of my NaNo projects past November

d) This is also the most I’ve written on a single story apart from a terrible fanfiction that WE’RE NOT GOING TO TALK ABOUT because it’s basically Angst Town USA and is hardly a cohesive (or coherent) story

So yeah. Pretty cool. I’mma keep working on it and see what happens.

NaNoWriMo 2020 Complete!

Yaaaay.

Here’s our good old word cloud.

Now to do something I’ve never done after NaNoWriMo: keep writing!*

In the past, I’ve always said to myself, “okay, so December is your break; once the new year rolls around, you will continue writing on your NaNo project until it’s done.”

That’s never happened, because once December has gone by, I’ve lost my little “groove” that I get into in November.

SO!

This year, I’m going to try to do 500 words a day starting…NOW!

I think 500 is a perfectly manageable amount but is also enough to start seeing some actual progress on the story, ‘cause it’s definitely not finished.

It’s a stupid story, yes, but the idea won’t leave me alone (which is why I chose to “redo” it this year), so let’s just roll with that. Yay?

*Okay, I guess I re-worked Prime a few times, but that was…like…five years after writing it? And it’s still not done? And it’s the dumbest story ever so screw it?

It’s tiiiiiiiiiiime

Time for the annual NaNoWriMo excerpt!

Yeah, I know. I’m not excited, either.

Like I said, I hate this freaking story but it won’t get out of my head, so I’m writing it. Again. Sorta.

So to spare everyone too much pain from scrolling past a long rambling excerpt, I’ll just give you a short one. And a short one that only needs a (relatively) short preamble so that you know what the hell’s going on.

(As if you care.)

So this story takes place in a world where (some) people have the ability to see ghosts, and a portion of those people work for the Bureau of Death, Dying, and Deceased, which regulates ghosts and ghost-human interaction as much as possible.

The main character, Nick, works at the Bureau as a ghost realtor. His job is to relocate ghosts that are haunting houses in living-zoned areas to literal “ghost towns,” which are towns that have been converted for ghosts only. Basically, he gives a ghost a deed to an empty house in the ghost town so they can “haunt” it legally and without bothering the living.

People at the Bureau are ranked by “Witness Level,” which is essentially how many different types of ghosts they can see. Witness Level is roughly correlated with age; the older you are, the more ghosts you can see, generally. The main conflict of the story revolves around Nick’s Witness Level increasing dramatically when he is relatively young and how he reacts to it. But that’s not super relevant here. The relevant stuff here is that as Witness Level increases, ghost realtors start having to deal with bigger, more volatile ghosts, so they typically work with a partner. This is the scene that introduces Nick’s partner, Ben. While Nick is quite sympathetic to ghosts, Ben is…not.

Oh, and the “destabilizer” is basically like a ghost Taser. Realtors carry them but are only supposed to use them if they feel their lives are in danger.

Yeah. Stupid, right? Anyway, here’s the excerpt: 

Ben thundered into Nick’s office later that afternoon. He led by his voice, which had such a carrying boom to it that it hurled itself into the office well before Ben himself made his appearance in the doorway.

“Nick!” came the voice, followed by the heavy thud of Ben’s boots, then by the large, wide man wedging himself through the doorway. “I’ve got somethin’ fer ya.”

Benjamin Price was the size of a refrigerator and marginally more intelligent than one. He was never without a cowboy hat and at least one article of clothing made from alligator. Sometimes it was the hat itself, but more often than not it was his boots, belt, or vest. You could smell Texas in his accent and tobacco on his breath. He was the color of Wonder Bread except after exerting himself, in which case the white would give way to such an alarming shade of bright red that one almost ventured to ask him if he’d forgotten to take a breath in the past three minutes.

He was this particular shade of red as he burst through Nick’s office door, puffing but pretending not to, with a small box clutched in one of his meaty fists. When Ben said, “I’ve got somethin’ fer ya” to someone, he usually either meant he had a stern word or a lousy piece of advice, which is why Nick was surprised when the enormous man plunked the box down upon Nick’s desk and panted, “A present.”

Despite working with Ben for the past five years, Nick still got a kick of just how out of breath his co-worker got just from hauling his massive self around the office. He waited with a patient smile until Ben’s breathing finally calmed, then glanced down at the box. “A present for what?”

Ben parked his behind on the corner of Nick’s desk. It creaked unsettlingly beneath his weight. “I heard you moved up a Witness Level. Figured you’d need somethin’ to help you with the tougher ghosts that you’ll be dealin’ with now.”

Nick had to laugh. “Tougher ghosts? I’m a Level 4 now, Ben. Blue Types. Caspers. The worst thing they could do to me is accidentally bump into me in a hallway.”

“Never hurts to be prepared.” He tilted his head toward the box. “Open ‘er.”

Nick knew what it was before he even laid a hand on the present, but he humored Ben and pretended not to have a clue until the box was opened and the protective plastic cover was removed from the gadget within.

“A destabilizer?” He held it between the very tips of his forefinger and thumb as it if was trying to bite him. “Really?”

“Fer the ghosts.” Obviously.

“Thanks, but I already have one.”

“Not like this one, ya don’t.” In his enthusiasm, Ben leaned forward, causing the desk to give another pained creak. “You’ve just got the company issue, and that model’s three years old now. This new one is better. It’s safer ‘cause it’s got a two-factor shooting system. It won’t go off in yer pocket by accident. And it’s more powerful. Higher voltage. Makes fer scramblin’ up those ghosts a lot longer so ya got more time to get reinforcements.”

As always, Ben made it sound like an encounter with a ghost was a fight for one’s life where only an army could defend you if you entered at a disadvantage. If only his enthusiasm for relocating ghosts was as high as it was for destabilizing them. He’d be a better realtor than Nick.

Nick opened his mouth to speak, but Ben stopped him with a roll of his eyes. “I know what yer gonna say. ‘I’ve never used one. I don’t like destabilizing ghosts. Blah, blah, blah, ghosts can feel the voltage.’ I know what yer gonna say. But on one of yer jobs one day, yer gonna be blindsided by some big-ass ghost who won’t respond to yer touchy-feely way of relocating it and yer gonna wish you had one of these more modern destabilizers to deal with it.”

Nick gave him a forced smile. “Well, when that day comes, as I writhe in agony on the floor with twenty broken bones, my only thought will be, ‘that Ben was sure right.’” He was still holding the destabilizer; he moved to put it back in its box.

“Hey, wait,” Ben stopped him. “At least humor me by switching it out with yer old one. Ya still got yer old one, right?”

Nick sighed as he opened his lower right desk drawer. “Only because I’m required to.” As much as he hated to admit it, the new destabilizer did look like quite the impressive piece of equipment compared to the older model that he produced from the drawer. Even in its yellow holster, Nick could see that the company-issued weapon was made of an inferior metal as compared to the new one and, as he made the switch, realized just how much heavier it was compared to the sleek, streamlined version that Ben had presented him with.

“There ya are,” Ben said with satisfaction as Nick worked the new destabilizer in his old holster. “Yer a regular sharp-shooter now.”

“I’m still not going to use it.”

“You will,” Ben said with a frightening level of confidence. “Some day you will. Just remember to aim at their heads. I read an article that says a destabilizer fired at the head will discombobulate them for a full twenty minutes longer than a shot anywhere else on them.”

“Christ, Ben.”

“‘Christ, Ben,’” he mocked. He then reached over and gave Nick a playful punch in the shoulder that nearly sent him reeling to the floor before he hoisted himself from the desk and headed out the door. “Yer welcome for the gun,” his voice boomed from the hallway.

Nick spent a moment massaging his shoulder where Ben’s fist had crashed into it, then picked up the destabilizer. He held it in his hand for a moment, then opened his bottom right desk drawer and tucked the weapon deep beneath a pile of folders. Upon closing the drawer, he promptly forgot about it.

Screw It, It’s 2020.

I ended up choosing to re-do my “Ghost Town Realty” story for NaNoWriMo this year. This is due to a few reasons:

1) I hate “Ghost Town Realty” just slightly less than I hate the other idea I had for this year.

2) I want to infuse more humor into the story, and I think the only way to do that is to start from scratch. I will use nothing that I’d written out from last time I did this (2018?) as far as actual words go, but I’ll probably re-write some scenes to add some actual humor. The story was completely devoid of that last time I attempted it and I really think it drained the life out of the whole thing.

3) I can’t get this damn idea out of my head. I hate it, it’s dumb, and it’s probably been done a billion times, but for whatever reason, the idea keeps sticking with me.

So yeah, that’s the plan.

At least until November 7 when I inevitably change my idea and have to spend the rest of November frantically trying to catch up on word count.

It’s tradition, after all.

OhNoWriMo

So NaNoWriMo is in like t-minus way too freaking soon and I still have no idea what I want to write about.

Part of me wants to re-write that stupid “Ghost Town Realty” story again because I like the premise and can’t get the idea of the story out of my head. I originally started that for my 2016 NaNo, but convinced myself that it wasn’t cheating to try it again for my 2018 NaNo because I didn’t even complete 2016 (that year was madness). But I’m pretty sure trying it yet again for yet another NaNo would be Super Cheating™ and I don’t know how I feel about that.

I mean yeah, the idea of NaNo is just to write; no one really cares what you’re writing about or re-writing about as long as you’re getting 50,000 new words in. But I’d feel guilty using the same idea YET AGAIN.

I have a title of a story to go with, but I haven’t quite yet figured out what story should go with the title. To be fair, that’s happened in some previous NaNos where I had a title first and then used NaNo to really built up the actual story (“Arborhood” comes to mind), but I don’t know if I want to “waste” this year’s attempt on something that might be garbage.

Hell, “Ghost Town Realty” will probably be garbage no matter how many times I re-write the entire thing, so.

Yeah. Super fun!

I know it’s only July, but…

What the hell should I do for NaNoWriMo this year? My 2010 NaNo predicted Steve Job’s death within like a half a year of his actual death (and also predicted Google Glass) and last year’s NaNo topic was freakishly similar to the COVID outbreak on the Diamond Princess at the start of this year (down to the fact that it was the SAME FREAKING SHIP), so…maybe I should write about something cheerful and good?

I have no idea, though. I have a story name, which sometimes is enough to get me started on something semi-coherent, but it would be nice to have a general story in mind.

We’ll see. It’s still a way off.

NaNoWriMo 2019: Complete!

WOO I won NaNo! That’s pretty good, considering I was more than 10,000 words behind pace at one point. My total end word count was 50,050.

Have a word cloud!

12-01-2019

Any excuse to do a survey, man.

It’s NANOWRIMO SURVEY TIME ALSKDFJSLAKDFJSLDAFAGH

(I’m also procrastinating actually working on my NaNo, ‘cause that’s how I roll.)

Tell me about your NaNoWriMo project this year! Give me a blurb!
The stupid, surface-level blurb (I just copy/pasted this from my excerpt post a few days ago, haha): an outbreak of a mysterious, unidentifiable, deadly disease occurs on a cruise ship. Due to the mortality rate of the disease and the fact that no one knows what it is or how it spreads, the ship is denied the ability to dock at any country, forcing it to basically become a floating hospital that is rapidly turning into a floating morgue as more and more people become sick. The story follows three individuals – Jochem (a passenger), Hugo (the captain) and Dr. Wex (the ship’s main doctor) – and how they cope with the fact that they know they are probably going to die on the ship.

There’s more to it than that, though. The disease and being trapped on the ship represents something different for each of my three main characters on a deeper level than just “they’re going to die, how do they deal with that?” due to their different places in each of their lives. I’m actually really liking how it’s turning out so far, even though it’s an incredibly stupid premise.

What’s the genre?
Probably just mainstream fiction.

Describe your MC in three words!
I have three main characters!
Jochem: Conflicted, lost, impulsive
Hugo: Confident, sociable, proud
Dr. Wex: Unflappable, professional, persistent

Without spoilers, describe your villain in three words.
I don’t really have a villain, unless you call the illness the villain, I guess.

What is your goal? (the traditional 50k? 20k? 5k? Or…100k?)
The good old 50k, as usual. At the rate this story is going, though, it will definitely need to be longer than 50k to be complete.

Is this your first draft? Second? Third?
Very first.

Are you starting a new project (or draft) or continuing an existing one?
A new project!

What is your favorite time to write in the day?
I like to write later at night, but I’ve actually been spending an hour or two at work (just before I go home) doing my writing there, especially on the nights where I have to go to bed at a reasonable hour to go walking in the morning.

Where are you going to write?
Either in my office or at my home computer late at night.

Computer or paper?
Definitely computer, though I’m not above jotting down any ideas/phrases/conversations I think of during the day when I’m not near a computer.

NaNoWriMo is a huge commitment. How are you going to make time to write?
SACRIFICE MORE SLEEP

Are you going to participate in local or online NaNoWriMo events? (e.g. kick-off parties in your regions, write-ins, virtual writing sprints…)
People are terrifying, so no.

Do you write from beginning to end or do you skip around?
I do some major skipping around. I don’t write even remotely in order.

Planner or pantser? (or plantser?)
Pantser. Plans are for SQUARES

What will be your go-to NaNoWriMo snack?
If I’m writing at work, I’ll probably write while I’m nomming a pita. If I’m writing at home, I’ll probably nom some Jolly Ranchers while I write.

Choice of caffeine? (or no caffeine?)
No caffeine. ADRENALINE ONLY!

Any rewards for milestone achievements? For finishing NaNoWriMo?
Nope! The finished product will be tucked away, never to be seen again. And that’s the end.

Share a tip for other NaNo-ers!
DON’T FALL BEHIND, HOLY HELL

How are you feeling about NaNoWriMo? Excited? Nervous? Tired?
I love NaNo. I bitch about the time commitment, but I do enjoy having an excuse to write something. Lord knows I don’t write any other time of the year, haha.

NANO EXCERPT

*audible sigh*

Hello, all. So it’s the middle of November, which means, as always, that it’s time for me to provide you with an excerpt from my NaNoWriMo project. I have an excerpt that I’m particularly proud of and want to share, but it actually has very little to do with the premise/main plot of my story, so I don’t think I’m going to share that one (even though it’s my fave).

So instead you’re going to get a different excerpt! The general premise of this dumb story: an outbreak of a mysterious, unidentifiable, deadly disease occurs on a cruise ship. Due to the mortality rate of the disease and the fact that no one knows what it is or how it spreads, the ship is denied the ability to dock at any country, forcing it to basically become a floating hospital that is rapidly turning into a floating morgue as more and more people become sick. The story follows three individuals – Jochem (a passenger), Hugo (the captain) and Dr. Wex (the ship’s main doctor) – and how they cope with the fact that they know they are probably going to die on the ship.

To set the following scene: the ship has been unable to dock anywhere for three weeks now because every country is afraid of this unknown but very deadly illness. So this ship is out there wandering aimlessly, trying to approach various countries for, if not the ability to dock, at least some provisions and fuel. By this point, a decent number of people are sick and the captain and crew have decided to dedicate an entire deck as a “quarantine deck” on which to keep the sick and those suspected to be sick to try to stop the illness from spreading.

Right now, they’re sailing through some nasty weather on their way to South America. The captain, Hugo, has been woken up by the storm and has decided to do a quick check of the crew as well as (in this scene) the deck that has been transformed into a quarantine ward.

GO! (I know, I know, the writing is terrible as always. It’s NaNo, what do you want.)

Upon leaving the wheelhouse, Hugo’s next destination was the quarantine deck. He hadn’t been down to visit it in a while – such a while, in fact, that it was only upon his reaching the elevator bay on the north end of the ship that he remembered that he had ordered that the elevators be shut down to try to prevent people from accidentally stepping off on the off-limit floor. Heading to the stairs, he met with the posted security guard who said that he could go and fetch Dr. Wex for the Captain if he wanted to be escorted through the quarantine region.

“I don’t want to bother the doctor,” Hugo responded, forgetting momentarily that it was far too early for anyone else on the ship to be awake, apart from himself and the men in the wheelhouse. “Just let him sleep. I’ll talk to him in the morning.”

But the security guard shook his head. “Oh no, he’s up right now, sir,” he said. “Dr. Wex hasn’t been sleeping much as of late, and when he does, he has mighty odd sleeping hours. I’ll go get him for you.”

The guard had been correct; Dr. Wex was awake and greeted Hugo with a kind but tired smile as he ascended the steps to meet the Captain.

“Late rounds, sir?” the doctor asked, running his hands through his greying hair in an attempt to tame any flyaways that had jutted into existence during his sleepless hours.

“No later than yours,” Hugo said. “I hope you’re getting enough sleep, Adrian. I know it’s in a doctor’s nature to put their health last after everyone else’s, but the last thing we need is for you to collapse from lack of sleep. Hell, you saw what a case of exhaustion did to me, and I’m sure I wasn’t working any harder than you currently are.”

“I’m doing fine, Captain,” the doctor said. “I’m used to these types of long hours; it’s part of what you come to expect being a doctor. Though I must say it has been taken to a bit more of an extreme in this particular case, given what we’ve had to deal with.”

Hugo tipped his chin in the direction of the stairs. “Am I allowed down to the quarantine deck? I’m assuming by your lack of mask or body suit that you don’t suspect the illness is airborne.”

Dr. Wex shook his head. “No,” he said. “Not airborne. Not yet, at least. There’s no guarantee that it will remain that way. There’s really not much of interest that you’d be able to see down below, but I’ll take you if you’d like.”

“I would, thanks.”

Hugo followed Dr. Wex down the dark stairway to the fifth deck. The conversion from regular passenger’s quarters and public areas to a secure, patient- and doctor-only quarantine deck had happened as recently as five days ago. But despite how recent the conversion had been carried out, the formerly lively, passenger-filled Plaza Deck was now a quiet, eerie, unwelcoming place. The main lights on the deck had been dimmed, mainly to save on power and fuel since no one was really utilizing the deck the way it was usually utilized, and places like the library, internet café, and the two large aft dining rooms were hauntingly empty. It brought on such a feeling of discomfort that Hugo actually shivered.

“The most critical patients are still on the lower deck, in the ship’s main medical center,” Dr. Wex explained as the two men made their way through the main plaza and towards the passenger rooms. “But we’ve quarantined the mildly ill band those who we feel might become ill – family members, those who have been in contact with people who are already ill, and the like – up here.”

It had been an unusual effort made by the ship’s crew to transfer all passengers who had had rooms on the Plaza Deck to rooms that were higher up on the ship. Luckily, due to the time of the year in which the ship was cruising, it was only at two thirds capacity passenger-wise. This meant that there were, in fact, enough rooms to accommodate the sixty or so sets of passengers who had to be rehomed when the order for vacating the fifth deck came into action.

“How many of these rooms are occupied?” Hugo asked as they made their way down one of the hallways. Usually, when one walked down a hallway that was flanked on both sides by staterooms, one could hear a general din of muffled talking, laughing, stomping, and shuffling of luggage and belongings. This hallway had none of those sounds; it was almost as if all the rooms were completely empty.

But Dr. Wex gave the Captain a number that surprised him. “Thirty, I’d say,” he answered after a moment of contemplation.

“That many?”

“A fair number of those are just precautionary,” Dr. Wex assured him. “We’ve taken to quarantining those who have just been in brief close contact with sick individuals. People who have sat at the same dining table as a sick person, or people who have visited a sick person’s stateroom, that kind of thing. Most of the people in these rooms are, as far as we can tell, not actually sick. Sick of being quarantined, maybe, but not sick with the illness.”

“Are they all being fed in one of the dining rooms?”

Dr. Wex shook his head. “To keep contamination to a minimum, we’ve opened up the room service menu to include anything we’d offer in a regular dining room or at the buffets and have encouraged people to just order food to their rooms. It’s keeping the chefs a bit busier – at least, those who are still working – but perhaps that’s a good thing. It helps keep everyone from thinking too much about possibly getting sick themselves.”

As they continued down the hall, the ship gave a big, unexpected heave, and the two staggered to stay upright in the dim hallway.

“Woah,” Hugo muttered after the ship had rocked herself back to a steady position. “We must have hit that wave at just the wrong angle.”

“Do you need to go up and check on things, sir?” the doctor asked.

But Hugo shook his head. “It feels like we’ve steadied out. Can’t blame the crew for those rough waves that hit us like that. They’re doing the best they can.”

The doctor nodded. “They’re doing better than I ever could.”

Before the two could continue moving down the hallway, a low moaning sound filled the space around them. It took Hugo a few seconds to realize that the sound had made its way through one of the stateroom doors that was right next to him. He nodded towards the door and spoke in hushed tones to Dr. Wex.

“Is… are they…?”

“Are they infected?” the doctor finished for him. He shook his head in response to Hugo’s nod. “No, they’re one of the ones that was quarantined out of precaution. Thomas Bond is his name. He’s got wicked motion sickness, though; I can’t imagine how he’s feeling right now having to stay cooped up in that small stateroom with all of this rocking going on. Though I guess, to be fair, the swaying of the ship is much less pronounced on these lower decks than it is on the upper decks, especially the open ones. I believe his original stateroom was on the tenth floor, so this quarantining should be an improvement in his motion sickness, at least.”

Dr. Wex paused; he noticed that the Captain was paying attention to what he was saying, but was also propping himself against one of the hallway walls and was doing his best to stifle a yawn that had crept up from his lungs into his mouth. He had no choice but to release it, though he tried to do so discreetly.

The doctor couldn’t help himself from commenting. “You should go back to bed, Captain,” he said gently. “Try to get some sleep. There’s nothing you can do to help these people down here, especially not now.”

“I can try to get them medicine,” Hugo muttered through another yawn. “Once we’re out of this gale and closer to the South American shoreline, I can start sending out distress calls – calls for supplies, medicine, anything.” He lowered his voice, afraid that someone might hear through their stateroom door. “Currently we’re not at the point where the supply of provisions outweighs the demand, but if more and more get sick and deteriorate in the same way we’ve seen with the first few deaths, we might be needing less and less as time goes on. But for now…” he trailed off. He was so tired that he didn’t know where he had intended to go with what he’d been saying.

“But for now,” Dr. Wex finished for him, “there’s nothing you can do. No radio signal is going to get through this storm, anyway. Really, Captain, I suggest you go get some rest while you can. If there ends up being a crisis down here that I cannot handle on my own or my medical team can’t handle, I’ll let you know. Right now, everything is being handled as best as we can.”

The Captain gave him a tired nod after a moment of consideration. “I suppose you’re right,” he conceded finally, letting out another yawn. “I’m sorry I can’t guarantee you a break, Adrian,” he said as they turned about in the hall and started heading back towards the stairwell. “If there ever is a lull in your duties – which I suspect is rare, even when the ship is not plagued by a mysterious illness – please feel free to just go to your stateroom and relax or have a meal. Shower. Recharge.”

Dr. Wex smiled at him. “I will,” he said, “if such an opportunity ever presents itself.”

The two made their way back to the stairwell and Hugo gave the doctor one last parting “thank you,” complete with a congenial pat on the back. Hugo figured if anyone had an excuse to be more tired than he currently was, it was the doctor. But he trusted Wex in his ability to know his own limits when it came to sleep deprivation, so he left him to his lower deck duties and returned to his own stateroom.

The swaying of the ship had neither gotten worse nor improved; the same could be said about the sounds of the wind as it whistled through every open space or over every unsecured item on the decks, creating a mix of whistling, whipping wallops and an accompanying melody of unsecured objects repeatedly crashing into the deck.

Hugo was able to tune out these noises, in part because he had gotten used to doing so on almost every other seafaring job he’d held over the years and in part because he was so tired. Once he was back in his stateroom, he stumbled with exhaustion toward his bed, unbuttoning and shedding his coat in the process, kicking off his shoes, and removing his pants as well. There was nothing more comforting and enjoyable than sliding beneath the heavy silk covers that sat atop his soft bed, and in an instant, all thoughts about the swaying ship, the perilous gale and the relentless illness were replaced with the sweet, seductive tonic of sleep.

Every. Freaking. Year.

Will I ever learn not to fall behind in the first few days of NaNo?

11-09-2019

No.

No I won’t.

NaNo? Nah.

It’s the first day of NaNoWriMo.

So did I write anything today?

No.
No I did not.

Fantastic way to start the month.

(Sorry, I hate myself.)

NANOWRIMO APPROACHETH

AND I DON’T HAVE A PLAN YET

(I never really have a plan for it, though, so what’s new.)

I have a character in mind, but I’m not sure what to do with him. I guess my backup in case I can’t do anything interesting with him is to do that whole “mysterious illness on a cruise ship” thing, but that sounds ultra dumb and I don’t know if I want to even put that on paper.

Who knows.

Roses are red, violets are blue

Other flowers are other hues.

(Sorry, I dreamt that goddamn stupid rhyme and I don’t have anything else to say today. Also, I’m a month late for actual Valentine’s day, THANKS BRAIN YOU SLACKER.)

E A R G A S M

I was gonna blog tonight
But then
Sennheisers

-A poem by Claudia

Let’s Write the Wrongs

As I do every time I hit my NaNoWriMo minimum of 50,000 words at the end of November, I immediately stop giving a crap about the thing I was working on and tuck it away to either a) not be looked at until like half a year has passed or b) not be looked at ever.

I was not too enthused about my story this year, but after taking a week or so away from it, I think it’s actually something that I could refine and make into an actual coherent story of sorts—one that, assuming a miracle occurs and I am suddenly granted with the ability to write well, I’d like to try to do something with. Publish it or something.

(Wild dreams, I know.)

Getting something I’ve written published has actually been one of my dreams since I was in like first grade and was writing all those coo stories. But I’m terrible at writing and everybody wants to get published and what the hell chance do I have anyway with the garbage story ideas I come up with anyway?

But at least this year’s project might actually work as a thing.

Prime (2009) is a cool little story, I think, but until I figure out the tone in which I want it told, it’s staying hidden.

Googol (2010) would immediately get me sued. Even if I changed the name of the company in question in the story, it would still be bad news, I think.

(We won’t talk about 2011 and 2012.)

Arborhood (2014) is one that miiight be workable, but I’m not sure. Right now there’s way too much exposition.

Earth’s Edge (2017) became character-driven very quickly, but at the expense of the whole main point of the story. There’s really no reason for them to be doing what the whole story was set up for them to be doing, so yeah. I really liked my characters, though.

But this year’s story? Possibly workable.

Maybe that will motivate me to, you know…work on it.

The Wrimo is OVER!

So NaNoWriMo’s done and I won with a relatively decent (for me) margin of time. I usually feel at least some level of accomplishment when I win NaNo, but I didn’t this year.

Which, you know, further confirms that I no longer value anything I do in life, but whatev.

Anyway. Here’s a word cloud.

12-01-2018

Right in the FEEEEELS

So the past few times I’ve done NaNo, I’ve made a blog post in which I talk about a “soundtrack” that would be appropriate to go along with that year’s NaNo novel. I don’t really have such a soundtrack in my mind for my ghost story this year, but I heard Owl City’s Silhouette on shuffle the other day and holy hell, does that song capture the mood I’m trying to get to in the sadder portions of the novel when Nick is feeling very much alone, out of control, and aware that he is rapidly losing is fight against a relentless death.

The song itself isn’t about death, but it invokes that exact feeling I’m going for.

It’s beautiful. It’s heartbreaking. I love it.

Edit: zomg, I just listened to this song for the first time on my new Sennheisers and those subtle chords in the line “the fire I began is burning alive”—especially the second time (2:09)—are like daggers to the soul. Gorgeous.

Straight Outta Tucson

I’m making progress on my story. Slow progress, but progress.

I also decided to make this story set in Tucson (as you probably read from the excerpt I posted a few days ago) for whatever the hell reason, which is giving me a ton of excuses to take pauses in my writing to look up some specific street or hospital or restaurant or whatever in Tucson.

It’s also making me miss living down there, which is kind of weird. I mean, I wasn’t even there a year. But I miss some stuff.

Don’t miss Marana, though.

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I’M WAFFLING

Current word count for NaNoWriMo: 4,210
“On pace” word count for NaNoWriMo: 20,000

Yeah, that’s shitty.

Why I want to still win NaNo:

  • Winning feels good.
  • I already abandoned this story back in 2016 and I keep getting the urge to write it, so I feel like I should at least give it another fair shot.
  • NaNo is really the only time where I feel like I have to force myself to write everyday. Which is good.
  • I really don’t need yet another failure on my resume this year.
  • I feel like I need to do something creative, and drawing’s out because I BLOW AT IT.


Why I want to abandon NaNo this year:

  • BUSY.
  • SERIOUSLY. BUSY.
  • I haven’t had free time in like a year and a half and I’d really like a little bit of free time please lord
  • It would go with the current theme of “Claudia Fails Hard at Everything She Tries in 2018” that I’ve got going on.
  • I’d much rather deliberately quit than fail after trying. I know that’s like the worst attitude to have, but I give zero fucks.

Eh. I’ll give it a shot. Maybe.

F

It’s three days into NaNo and I’m already thinking of changing my story.

Why do I do this.

Just fucking stick with something for five minutes, you complete bag of worthless trash.

NaNooooooooo

So it’s day one and I’m already behind.

Because that’s the type of loser I am this year, I guess.

F

More NaNo Thoughts

In addition to 1) wanting to continue working on last year’s NaNo, despite its lameness, and 2) wanting to retry my 2016 NaNo idea, despite its lameness, I have another (lame) idea that I’ve had in the back of my head for a while. It’s an idea that I’m sure has been done thousands of times…but hasn’t everything? It’s all about how you do it, right?

Anyway. It involves a cruise ship on which it is discovered that one of the passengers has some contagious illness (possibly one that the CDC hasn’t fully identified yet, but is dangerously contagious and deadly) and no port will allow the cruise ship to dock due to the risk of spreading the illness, so they’re forced to remain at sea as more and more passengers get sick and provisions run low.

Yeah, I know, dumb.

OH GOD NANOWRIMO

IT STARTS SOON

I AM NOT PREPARED

Part of me wants to keep working on my story from last year, even though I know the plot is dumber than dumb and I would do absolutely nothing with that story other than put it in the drawer (or USB) with all the other garbage I’ve ever written.

Another part of me wants to re-try the story that I attempted back in 2016. Like, same idea and stuff, but scrap everything I’d done that year and restart it.

I’ll probably do that, but who actually knows. There’s also a strong possibility that I’ll fail again this year because THAT SEEMS TO BE ALL I KNOW HOW TO DO ANYMORE.

NONSENSICAL TITLE TIME

Huh, this looks intriguing.

2,500 words is…not a lot. And the word counts get smaller with each round. But I guess that’s only if you do well enough!

It’s also pricey, though, so I’m not sure.

But it’s a challenge. I seem to only be able to write under the pressure of a challenge or deadline.

WE SHALL SEE