So this week has been awful.
But luckily I have a ridiculously incredible fiancé who picked up some super colorful flowers for me on his way home from work today, just because he knows things have gone south for me over the past few days and he wanted to show he cares.
I can’t wait to marry this man.
Two other completely unrelated bits of news:
- I had a scintillating scotoma migraine this morning. It’s been awhile since I’ve had one of those.
- I want you all to hear 2016’s first five-star song. It’s incredible.
So today was “math/stats graduate student department orientation day” and what happens to me a half an hour before I’m ready to go to campus? A freaking migraine aura! So I stumbled around all my unpacked crap to find my Excedrin (luckily it was accessible), stumbled around trying to get dressed, then finally got to the math/stats building with help from my mom, ‘cause I couldn’t see a damn thing.
I also learned that while neither sound nor light bothers me when I’m having my aura (or the headache following it), riding in the car makes me want to puke up my soul.
Luckily, my vision started to return about an hour into orientation and I’d taken the Excedrin early enough so that I didn’t have a SUPER bad migraine, and by 11 or so I felt back to normal.
The universe is sure giving me a rough time about Grad School Part 2.5, lemme tell ya.
I shouldn’t be surprised by this, of course, but it’s nice to finally put a name to it.
The aura I get before I have a migraine is called a scintillating scotoma, which is a super cool name for a super crappy experience. What happens is this (this is actually so accurate it’s scary):
Then it spreads to the periphery and then, for me, everything goes black for up to half an hour. However, from what I’ve (hastily) read (over the past few hours), the total blindness thing doesn’t seem to be very common.
That freaking flashing color thing, though…
Today was the first Saturday in about a month where I didn’t have like 2,000 things to do. So I had it all planned out:
- General “screw around” time in the morning
- Long walk once it got dark or, if inspiration struck, slow but longer walk on the treadmill desk + writing
- FALLOUT 3. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW BIG OF AN URGE I HAVE TO PLAY THIS AGAIN ALL OF A SUDDEN
- “Screw around time”: evening edition
So what did I end up doing?
Sitting uselessly in my chair waiting for my DAMN VISION TO COME BACK THANKS TO AN ALL-DAY MIGRAINE AURA.
Granted, sitting and listening to music is an enjoyable thing to do, and I did get a few ideas for my long story in Fiction (as stupid as they were), but seriously? I had a schedule, brain, you rebellious little fart bucket.
I guess I should be glad, though, that it happened on a day where I didn’t really need to get anything done rather than on a day where I had stuff to do ASAP.
Calc III is over. :(
It’s a sad day! It was one of my favorite math classes.
I just seriously hope that the answers to the 10-question final were 4, 1, 4, 6, 6, 1, 6, 55/23, 4, and 1, because that’s what my answers were. We’ll see. I gave myself a 60-point leeway to get an A with my homework and midterm scores and I don’t THINK I made 60 points worth of mistakes, but who knows. I’m fantastic at screwing up. I missed one point on the midterm because I completely abandoned a negative sign like two steps into a cross product. FAIL!
Also, migraines suck.
Well actually, I had two dreams last night and only one of them was bad.
The first one involved fat dudes and Office Depot. So it wasn’t bad.
The second one, though, involved my eyesight. It started out where I’d be looking at something and then whatever was in my direct line of sight would start to break apart into the visible spectrum like a rainbow halftone print. Then things progressed to where the thing in my direct line of sight would break into the spectrum and then all the color would vanish, leaving me with a greyish blur vaguely reminiscent of whatever object it used to be. Then finally the center of my field of vision was totally gone. It wasn’t black, but it was like a huge blind spot and the only things I could see clearly were at the very edges of my peripheral vision.
Now that I think about it, that’s actually kind of what happens when I have a migraine, though by the time I reach TOTAL BLINDSPOT TAKEOVER I’m usually lying down after chugging a bottle of Excedrin, hoping the pain doesn’t come.
Ha, maybe I had a migraine during my sleep. Can that happen and the person not be aware of it? My migraines don’t last very long, so I probably would have been over it by the time I woke up if that happened.
I posted this quite awhile ago on here, but I’m posting it again ’cause it’s relevant and it gives you an idea of what pre-migraine is like for me. The spazzing rainbow ALWAYS happens right in the center of my field of vision, though, and then everything goes blind spot on me.
So today I had my first migraine since last December. Totally lost my vision for a bit. Miraculously made it home.
Then I willed the migraine away with MIND POWERZ!
Actually, it probably was the Excedrin.
But I like to think it was MIND POWERZ!
Then I spent the rest of the night doing math, which is usually fun but much less so when your head wants to fall off.
Soooooo…you get this.
Alternate title: “Me + Flight Sims = Bad” (damn you, GoogleEarth! Now I know I can’t fly an F16 from campus to my house without crashing at least 4 times).
I don’t know if I was searching for migraine info or if I found this via StumbleUpon, but this describes and shows pretty much exactly what happens when I have a migraine, which I thought was pretty awesome considering it’s hard to describe being able to see a bunch of flashing colors while simultaneously not being able to really see much of anything. My migraines usually start out with my thumbs tingling, then all my fingers pretty much go numb, then the visual crap starts. Then the death headache that lasts for about a day if I’m lucky enough to take Imitrex early enough in the process, but longer if I don’t. Luckily, I only get about one migraine per year, sometimes two, but with each one I’ve noticed a progressive increase in the loss of vision beforehand, so who knows what that means. Brains are weird.
Also, yay for the early nineties…
Today’s song: Peace (Herves Warehouse Frequencies Remix) by Depeche Mode
Shouldn’t a kid win the spelling bee if they spell “relief” “R-O-L-A-I-D-S”? I think yes.
I got a migraine today and it was bad. I couldn’t even go to the game and taunt the players with the Butt Song!
I just kinda staggered around my room till I found the bed and then died for a few hours.