Ah, what the hell. I’m bored.

Mark your confessions:
[   ] I’m afraid of silence
[   ] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[X] I am really ticklish.
[   ] I’m afraid of the dark.
[   ] I’m afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.
[   ] I can’t sleep in a room if the door is open
[   ] I am homosexual.
[   ] I believe in true love.
[   ] I’ve ran away from home
[X] I listen to political music
[   ] I collect comic books
[X] I shut others out when I’m sad.
[   ] I’ve stayed out all night.
[   ] I open up to others easily.
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[   ] I watch the news (online)
[   ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[   ] I love Disney movies.
[   ] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[X] I am a sucker for brown eyes.
[   ] I am a sucker for blue/grey eyes
[X] I don’t kill bugs
[X] I curse.
[   ] I have “x”s in my screen name.
[X] I’ve slipped and fallen in public.
[just in jest] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a real conversation
[   ] I love Spam
[   ] I bake well.
[   ] I have worn pajamas to class.
[   ] I have owned something from Abercrombie.
[X] I want a better job
[   ] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[   ] I love Dr. Phil.
[   ] I like multiple people
[just in jest] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I am self-conscious.
[X] I love to laugh.
[   ] I have tried alcohol.
[   ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.
[   ] I have tried a cigarette.
[   ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[X] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[   ] I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
[   ] I can’t swallow pills.
[X] I have a lot of scars.
[   ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I love chocolate.
[X] I bite my nails.
[X] I am not comfortable with being me.
[X] I play computer games when I’m bored.
[   ] Gotten lost in the city.
[X] Thought of suicide before.
[   ] Seen a shooting star…
[   ] Had a ménage a trios
[   ] Gone out in public in my pajamas
[   ] Have kissed someone really strange….
[   ] Hugged a stranger.
[   ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of a diff. sex.
[   ] Been in a fist fight.
[   ] Been arrested.
[X] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose.
[   ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[   ] Made out in an elevator.
[   ] Swore at Liberace.
[   ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose
[   ] Been skydiving.
[   ] Been bungee jumping.
[X] Gotten stitches.
[   ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[   ] Bitten someone
[   ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[X] Gotten the chicken pox.
[   ] Crashed into a car (that magnificent parking job doesn’t count, Maggie!)
[   ] been to Japan.
[X] Ridden in a taxi.
[X] Shoplifted
[   ] Been fired.
[X] Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[X] Stole something from your job (two saltine crackers, give me a break!)
[   ] Gone on a blind date.
[X] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[   ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[X] Been to Europe.
[   ] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.
[X] Been married
[   ] Gotten divorced
[X] Saw someone/something dying.
[   ] Have a list of people you want to kill.
[X] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[X] Been to Canada.
[X] Been on a plane.
[   ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[   ] Thrown up in a bar.
[   ] Eaten sushi.
[   ] Been snowboarding.
[X] Been ice skating
[X] Cried in public.
[   ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[X] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn’t have.
[X] Thought of someone a lot
[X] Hate(d) the world.
[X] Love someone who doesn’t realize it

Huttah! It’s survey time once again! Enjoy.

25 “deep” questions that will really tell you something about me.

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someone’s eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someone’s eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
I don’t find either very difficult, actually. I guess I’m more apprehensive looking into someone’s eyes when they’re telling me how they feel because I don’t want to make them uncomfortable

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry?
Oh-ho-ho…yeah. You really don’t want to know. Let’s just say I felt angry because I felt hurt and wronged.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who would you call?
My mom, of course. I don’t think I would call anyone else, anyway.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. (A) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? (B) What do you do with your remaining days? (C) Would you be afraid?
a) Nah. I’ll do what I’d do, seemingly without justification. I’d explain all in my death note.
b) Get drunk, get high, and screw! Haha, not really. I really don’t know what I’d do. I’d continue blogging, of course. Write my memoirs! That’s a good one. Go skydiving, if there’s time to schedule it. Write a personal letter to several specific people telling them what I think of them (both good and bad, here) and mail it the last day I’m alive, do some basic stream-of-consciousness writing, just to see what happens…hmm. This requires lengthy thought.
c) probably on occasion. Not the whole month, though, certainly not.

5. You can have one of the following two things: trust/love. Which do you choose?
Ah, hell. You can’t have love without trust. When trust is broken, you can no longer love…or can you? Is it love or longing you feel? Is it want to go back to how things were, or is it longing for before you even got involved? Ah, shut up. Trust is more important. And here’s some good advice: don’t freaking break peoples’ trust.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you save the dog?
Of course I save the dog. I have compassion for all living things (except monkeys). Plus, I can always explain to my boss the circumstances. And if he doesn’t agree that it was a worthy reason for missing work, then why in the world am I working for him in the first place?

7. You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her. Why or why not?
I would NEVER be unfaithful. Never. End of story.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. What do you say?
I would thank them for their honesty, and tell them to be equally acceptable of my honesty when I then tell them thank you, but I’m not looking for a relationship at the moment. Of course, in the actual situation, the phrasing of this would be much more flustered/dumb-sounding due to my utter lack of social grace and skills.

9. Think of the last person who you knew that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year of your life. Do you do it?
Of course! My grandpa went from outwardly perfectly healthy to dead from cancer in less than a week’s time. He certainly deserves one more hour to say what he needed to but couldn’t say anyways. What’s a year to me, anyway? I’d probably waste it.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
I couldn’t stand myself as a friend. I don’t know how you people put up with me. Seriously.

11. Does love = sex?
No! Friends can love each other, right? I don’t see all of us dodging procreation nightly with all of our friends, now do I? …That would be amusing.

12. Your boss tells your co-worker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your co-worker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company?
Well, this totally depends on the job. And my situation. There are way too many factors to consider, here. Do I have family to support? Do I have any other source of income? Who is the better employee, them or me? Too many factors.

13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say?
It’s been a looooong time. I probably should, but I can’t.

14. What would be harder for you to tell a friend: that you love them or that you do not love them back?
That I love them. Cause I know—I know—it would equal rejection. It’s just the way these things work for me.

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
The internet. How sad is that? I love this freaking place—’tis my home and haven, where I go when I’m bored/excited/looking for information/looking for surveys such as this one. It’s a huge part of my life, I am not ashamed!

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? Who were they to you?
My mom; she’s my mom.

17. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, if you HAD to even if you have “no regrets” what would you change?
Intelligence. More of it. Sooner in life. Grad school by age 10 would’ve made me ecstatic.

18. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone/something walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you to comfort you, to tell you its okay?
Eh, no one. That stuff doesn’t scare me. If it’s someone coming to rape and kill me, then it’s someone coming to rape and kill me.

19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying?
Once again, of course! Assuming said homeless person is not of the monkey variety, I have compassion for him. Though I would be hesitant based on the fear that I would be doing it wrong and harm them further.

20. Survey person left one of the questions blank. do you ignore it or add a question for the next person?
I usually ignore it, but on occasion I notice and I add the obligatory “please touch my butt?” question.

21. You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death?
Um, do you know my grandmother? Do you know what she’s done to my family and me? I’m not going to answer this.

22. Are you old fashioned?
Yes, surprisingly. Some of my attitudes are rather old fashioned. And I often like to talk as if I came from the 1800s.

23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
Recently. I do this all the time. What good does it do a person to be nice when they’re always expecting something in return? All they’ll be is disappointed much of the time.

24. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
Never loved at all. Because trying to reverse feelings that you’ve finally allowed to exist is very hard.

25. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
I would like to know as much as a person can know. I don’t know how much that is, but I know it’s more than I know now. Of course, I would be willing to work for it.