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Hoo-rah

Hooray, a 33/30 on that test!

That makes me super happy. Not as happy as A’s on BOTH of those freaking tests, but it least it raises my average up to an A- in the class.

Now all that is left is the final.

Bring it on.

(I’m going to go pass out from relief.)

 

Test = done

UGH THE TEST IS OVER. I think I did okay. Hopefully. I kind of “blacked out” during it, meaning that I don’t really remember doing any of it, it just kind of happened.

But that’s good! That’s something that usually happens when I know the material well, and it usually results in a good grade.

NOW I CAN RELAX FOR A LITTLE BIT HOLY HELL.

Having some Thesis Fun

Haha. So. I found this post tonight where someone plotted average (well, median) dissertation and thesis lengths by area of study.

So I took a screenshot of the one for the theses and put a vertical red line at the length of my UBC thesis, just to see how it compared (a better, clearer pictures of this graph can be found at the above link).

Theses Plot

Yeah.

TO BE FAIR, many of my pages were plots, not text. But still. It was a long thesis.

AND NOW I HAVE TO DO ANOTHER ONE LASDJFLAKSDFHALFJWELKF.

Grad School News

So here’s some news: I’m going to have two supervisors at school instead of one from now on.

Reason is as follows: Dr. Chen said that he wanted to talk to me after class today, and he basically told me that because I’m doing my own research topic rather than one he selected for me for my thesis, he wants to make sure that I’ve got someone who knows the topic a little bit more than he does (he doesn’t specialize in SEM or anything like that).

He also said that one of the new professors in the department has a strong background in latent variable modeling (SEM is a common technique used when you’ve got latent variables) who is applying for grants. One of the criteria they look at to determine whether or not to give you grant money is how much experience you have supervising students. Since the new professor is, well, new, she doesn’t have any experience being a supervisor. Thus, Dr. Chen thinks that having her be a co-supervisor could be beneficial to us both, as she will be able to put down that she’s currently supervising a grad student and I’ll have someone who’s quite familiar with SEM working with me as I do my thesis.

Coolio.

Oh, and her name is Dr. Shen. My co-supervisors are Dr. Chen and Dr. Shen.

That is awesome.

WOW I SUCK

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I SUCK

BLUCHGLSKJFG

Well, I’m pretty sure that was the worst I’ve ever done on a test.

Fantastic.

I guess we’ll have to wait and see until next week to see if my “Complete Loser” status is confirmed.

I’m going to go die in a corner now.

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THE GREAT CAMPUS TREK

Alright, so for some reason they stuck Dr. Lu’s class at the opposite end of campus and we have to trek all the way over by the bus loop to get to it.

Not that it’s a long distance by any means—it’s at most .75 miles I think—but as far as getting to a class goes, that’s quite a ways. Especially for students who have to run labs right before Dr. Lu’s class and have to motor to get to class within the 10 minute break (if they even get that much time; I always have students asking me questions after lab).

ANYWAY.

Have another picture of Jasmine (who is now almost exclusively called Jazzy Cat or Jazz). I’m trying to get a good one of her face because it’s so pretty, but I also don’t want to freak her out with the camera. So this is zoomed in on her. Hence the blurriness.

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Classes!

Heeeey, so my second year (fourth year technically, but who’s counting?) of grad school started today! I was all excited to give you a review of my classes like I always do when a new semester starts, but then I remembered I only have two classes total—one that starts today and one that starts tomorrow.

BUT I WON’T LET THAT STOP ME!

Today was Theory of Estimation, taught by Dr. Chen. It sounds like it’s going to be an interesting class…not sure if it’s going to be as hard as the class he taught last fall. We shall see.

I also had my first TA assignment today, but my schedule’s still being thrown around, so who knows if I’ll have to do the same thing next week.

Short blog is short!

Numbers multiplied by two don’t get mad…they get even.

So school starts up again tomorrow. And I’m super nervous about it.

Well, okay, I’m always super nervous about school. I’ve basically been in high anxiety mode since 2006. You might wonder what the hell I’m so nervous about. I’ve had almost a decade of college now (DEAR GOD, THAT’S DEPRESSING) and I’ve already gone through a master’s program. What’s the big deal?

The big deal is the following: that first master’s program? That was the worst two goddamn years of my life. Every day was miserable and the thought of going to campus made me physically ill on several occasions. I hated meeting with my supervisor because I knew I would get berated to some degree no matter what we were talking about.

I was so nervous and stressed out that most of the second year is gone from my memory. Seriously. I don’t remember much school-wise beyond just being miserable and wanting to quit. I wanted to quit so badly. I honestly have no idea how I finished that thesis and successfully defended it. My fear and anxiety made me procrastinate and I really didn’t get started on things until March (I had to defend in June). Really, I was just not in a good mental place that entire year.

And while I know this time is almost completely different in every aspect, I still have that fear and anxiety about the process. And I still get nauseous whenever I have to meet with Dr. Chen just because of how bad things were between my supervisor and me before. I know Dr. Chen’s not like that at all, but there’s still that fear.

There’s still the fear about everything regarding this whole thing.

And that’s why I’m super nervous.

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GRADES!

YAY, I got an A in Multivariate! I was super nervous because the final was brutal and there was one question on there that I’m pretty sure no one got full points for, but still…nervous.

And I got an A+ in Dr. Chen’s class, but I was expecting that just because we didn’t have a final and I knew what my grades were for everything else in that class.

WOO!

Claudia’s Top Ten Reasons Why Round II of Grad School is better than Round I of Grad School

The semester is officially* OVER! We shall not discuss the Multivariate Analysis final. Instead, it’s time for a very important list.

Claudia’s Top Ten Reasons Why Round II of Grad School is better than Round I of Grad School (ordered from least important to most important)

10. I was excited to move to Calgary.
I didn’t give a crap about Vancouver when I moved there. UBC was the only school that accepted me, and so that’s where I went. Location didn’t really matter. This time I had a choice (sort of (and it was a hard one)), but I pretty much knew as soon as I was accepted at U of C that Calgary would be a cool place to live and that I wanted to move there.

9. I “fit in” here.
This isn’t too big of a deal to me, but it’s nice to be around people who are actually interested in the same stuff as I am, school-wise. When I was at UBC, I was the ONLY one in the quantitative psychology division of the department, and thus was kind of isolated. Here, we’re all together in the same program, which is nice.

8. I’m older now.
I GOTS TEH WISDOM!!!1!
Seriously though, I think being in grad school at 27 instead of 21 makes a huge difference. This is the most cliché thing ever, but I feel like I’m mature enough for grad school this time around. (And probably would have been at 23 or 24, too, but I was busy doing other things then. Like more undergrad.)

7. I actually have a solid math background now.
Well, as solid a math background as I can have. Surprisingly, a solid math background is helpful in statistics. Who would have guessed?

6. I actually give a crap this time.
I did NOT give a crap last time. Not one little itty bitty crap.

5. I’ve been through all this nonsense before and thus know I can do it.
There were a few times at UBC where I was positive I was not going to be able to make it through because I didn’t think I was the type to be able to complete and defend a thesis. But now I know!

4. It almost never rains here.
It almost never iraining in Vancouver. As you can tell by how far up this is on the list, weather was a major downside to Grad School Round I.

3. I get along with my supervisor here.
REALLY.
DAMN.
IMPORTANT.
NOT.
EVEN.
KIDDING.

2. I like what I’m doing now.
I guess I liked quant psych too, since I was practically doing a stats degree, but now it’s ALL ABOUT THE STATS, not just their application to psychology. And I’m just so damn happy to finally be doing JUST STATS, not stats mixed with some other crap because I’m too chicken to just do stats.

1. I have a reason for being in grad school this time.
I wasn’t quite sure what I was going to do once I finished grad school back at UBC. Teach? Maybe. Work for the Census Bureau? Maybe. Who knows? But now that I KNOW I’m good at teaching stats and enjoy doing so immensely, that’s given me a very solid reason for being back at grad school. And that’s probably more important than all the other items on this list combined.

 

*Well okay, I still have to invigilate exams on Monday, but that’s easy.

The Nervousness is Palpable

Y’know, it’s really hard to study when you’ve got this damn thing going through your head ALL DAY LONG.

Multivariate was a super fun class, but I’m really nervous about the final. For the midterm, we only had 9 lectures to study. For the final, we have 29. And a lot of it (PCA, factor analysis, MANOVA, etc.) are things that we can’t really do calculations for by hand (at least quickly), so none of us are sure if those things will even be on the test or if there will be more conceptual questions relating to those.

Blaaaaaah.

ALSO, there’s a cat show today and I’m super tempted to go, but I should just stay home and study.

busybusybusybusy

The good thing about 12-week semesters: the end of the semester doesn’t seem like it drags out for five years like it does with UI’s 16-week semesters.

The bad thing about 12-week semesters: when you’re used to 16-week semesters, it always seems like a real push to get everything done in that last week.

BLAH I HAVE NO TIME FOR BLOGGING, SORRY.

Preachin’ the Teachin’

We had to write a teaching philosophy statement, summarizing our approach/attitude towards teaching math and stats, for our seminar class. I’m going to post mine here. It explains how I like to think about teaching stats and emphasizes what I consider to be the most important things to keep in mind while delivering the subject to students who may be less than enthusiastic about anything number-related.

I have, for the majority of my life, been a student, but only recently have I taken on the role of a teacher. From 2012 to 2014, I worked as a lecturer at the University of Idaho, teaching introductory statistics to undergraduate students. Though I was brand new to teaching and wary about teaching material that had the reputation of being boring, difficult, or both, it took me only my first semester to solidify my teaching philosophy and to develop instructional techniques that have been proven effective in getting students interested in and engaged in learning statistics.

My approach to teaching can be best broken into four key components: empathy for the students, flexibility in the teaching techniques and methods, enthusiasm for the material, and the ability to show real-world application of the material. These four components work together to emphasize my core teaching philosophy and goals: in order to best foster learning, teaching should not only cater to the student but cater to the subject being taught as well, allowing for students to have a learning experience that allows them to see both the technical and the practical side of the material.

Unlike many who end up as lecturers in mathematics or statistics, I come from a background heavy in the humanities and the social sciences. Due to this background, I am able to easily empathize with students who may lack a strong mathematical background and thus may be intimidated or nervous about taking a statistics course. Such students are common in introductory courses similar to the ones I have taught, as these courses are usually used to fulfill a course requirement and are often the only classroom exposure to statistics that many students get.

An empathetic mindset—especially when introducing “basic” concepts and notations that may be brand new to many of the students in the class—is a mindset I try to adopt when teaching. Telling students that it’s okay if this is the first time they’ve seen how to calculate a mean or how to read summation notation, and then to walk them through it slowly but without condescension, can go a long way towards fostering a good relationship with them while also making them feel more comfortable with the material. In my two years of lecturing, I had many students comment that they appreciated the fact that I took the time to teach them the very basic components of statistics before delving into the more complicated material and that this helped them feel more at ease in the class.

Along with empathy for the students, another important component in my approach to teaching is to be flexible with how the material is taught. Most statistical concepts can be explained in several different ways—showing students the equations, explaining a concept using an analogy, creating a visual representation of the concept, among others. I have learned that it is important to try to approach and explain a concept from several different angles to allow as many students to grasp the concept as possible. For example, when students are learning about analysis of variance, I have found that some students understood it by looking at the equation for the F statistic, while others understood it by seeing a visual of the variances that the F statistic is actually comparing. Being able to explain a concept from multiple angles helps to make sure that every student is able to grasp the concept and understand it in a way that’s best for them.

The third component to my teaching approach is one that I feel is especially important but often overlooked in the field of statistics—showing enthusiasm for the material. In my own experience as a student, when an instructor fails to show interest for the topic they are teaching, it becomes difficult to remain engaged in the class and ultimately more difficult to learn. For a subject like statistics, which already seems to have a reputation of being dry and boring for many students, it is important for an instructor to be able to show that the material and concepts that they are teaching are more than just equations on a page.

For me, part of showing my enthusiasm for the subject is to really try to give students an “under the hood” look at statistics. Rather than just show them a formula or tell them a theorem, I’ve found that students remain much more engaged if they are shown why a formula is the way it is or why a theorem is important. For example, when teaching students the general formula used to calculate binomial probability, I choose to “derive” the formula by using some basic probability examples and then work up to the actual formula itself. Giving them this deeper glimpse into why the formula is written the way it is not only gives them a better understanding of the formula itself (they are no longer just “blindly” using it but understand the reasons behind it), but it also engages them in the process of seeing how and why the formula works.

Another way of showing enthusiasm for the subject is to present students with fun and interesting examples of concepts they are being taught. For example, after students learn about visuals like bar charts and histograms, I like to take a few minutes and show them some examples of poorly constructed or exaggerated graphs used by the media or by politicians. Bringing some humorous or interesting examples into the classroom can help keep students engaged and make them more interested in the subject.

Related to the concept of showing enthusiasm for the material, the fourth and final component of my approach to teaching is to make sure to give students some real-world applications of the material they learn in the classroom. This is a component that I think is especially important in teaching an introductory statistics course, as nearly all academic fields employ statistical procedures to some degree, but students from other disciplines often think that they will never use the techniques they learn in class. The main way I employ this component is by using actual data from various different fields in my in-class examples. When teaching regression, I use data from a published psychology study. When teaching analysis of variance, I use data from a plant breeding program or data from a business-related study. I feel that it is important to emphasize to students through examples that the techniques they learn in their statistics courses can and often are applied in their own fields.

My application of these four key components in my teaching has proven effective in providing a good learning experience for students. I consistently received positive teaching reviews during my time at the University of Idaho, with many students commenting that they felt like they truly understood the material and had actually developed some enthusiasm for the field of statistics. I have also recently received a Graduate Teaching Assistant Excellence Award from the University of Calgary for my work as a TA in the fall of 2014. I plan to continue to adapt and modify my teaching strategies and techniques to further my goals as a teacher and to provide a comfortable, thorough, and enjoyable statistics education for students in both introductory courses and more advanced courses.

POOFY BISCUITS

I miss Americans.

Is that a weird thing to say?

Like, Canadians are super cool and so are all my grad school friends from across the globe, but I miss my fellow USA peoples. At UBC, the incoming psych grad students were pretty much split 50/50 between Canadians and Americans, but I’m literally the only American grad student in the stats department here. It’s weird.

SOUL DESTROYER

For my presentation* in my seminar class, I’m basically presenting some of the main results of my MA thesis. This has required me to dredge up this old notebook from way back when.

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This notebook brings back bad memories.

This notebook brings back thoughts of UBC.

This notebook brings back thoughts of how, every morning, I would dread going to campus with every fiber of my being.

This notebook brings back thoughts of how I would have a panic attack every Thursday because Thursday was the day I was supposed to meet with my supervisor.

This notebook brings back thoughts of how much I eventually stopped caring about school—something I hate admitting even now.

This notebook reminds me that I lost two years of my early twenties to misery, fear, dread, and depression, among other things.

This notebook brings back bad memories.

Aaaaaaaand now I’m sad.

 

*You may be asking, “if this brings back so many bad memories, why the hell are you doing your presentation on your old thesis results? Because the presentation is focused more on our presentation skills rather than the content, so it was recommended that we just use some results/ideas that we’ve come up with in the past and focus on the “presenting” part rather than try to come up with something new.

Broccles

LOOK AT MY FRIDGE

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THAT IS ALL BROCCOLI
WHO LET ME LIVE ALONE?

Anyway.

Turns out everyone in Dr. Chen’s class got dropped from it the night before the class started, so we spent about 15 minutes of today’s class just being confused over why we’d all suddenly get dropped. More on this riveting story as it develops.

Also, I’m in a Muse mood tonight. I’ve posted this video on here before, but I’ll post it again because it features the song I’ve currently got stuck in my head.

BOOSH

Hey, so it turns out that I won a Graduate Assistant Teaching Excellence Award for my TA work last semester. Snazzy!

Actually, I think I was the last person to find out I was one of the five six winners, considering the fact that an email regarding the awards was sent out last week to everyone but me, haha. I only found out once someone said congratulations to me and I had to ask, “For what?”

Also, Multivariate Analysis looks like it’s going to be awesome. We indeed get to do factor analysis. Expect nothing but joyful screeching that week.

Edit: I guess all the other four winners are from pure/applied math. I’m the only one from stats. Badass!

Edit 2: holy crap, I get $600 as part of that award? Badass!

Mitten Manufacturing: A Labor of Glove

What the heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeell.

Alright, so Dr. Chen had our grades in for 701 last week. I got a B+, which is certainly not stellar by any means. However, the fact that it’s a B+ and not an A- (or maybe even an A) is most likely due to my low score on the first midterm. Why did I get a low score on the first midterm? Because I’m me and I panicked on it, which caused me to make a really dumb mistake on a question I knew how to do. I was able to catch the mistake and fix it during the test, but doing so cost me so much time that I was unable to even answer one of the other two questions, which got me a super low score on that third of the test.

But we’re not here to talk about 701.

We’re here to talk about 601, the class that I was really worried about. Up here we need a B- to “pass” a class* but are only allowed to have two B- grades every two semesters. So really we all want B’s or better. Calculating my grade before the project, I pretty much needed a perfect score on said project to get a B overall. And even though I was feeling fairly confident about the project after I’d finished it last week, I figured there was no way in hell I’d gotten a perfect score.

So I checked my grade today and somehow I pulled off an A- in 601. As you might expect, I’m pretty pleasantly shocked. He must have really curved things at the end. Either that or my presentation ROCKED HIS SOCKS.

But I’m guessing he just really curved things at the end.

Either way, though, I’m relieved. I was really worried throughout this semester that I’d do so poorly that they’d kick me out. Seriously. I’m the only** statistics student from the United States, too. Gotta represent!

 

*A note for my American readers out there (which I think is almost everyone): Canada grades are different than US grades in the sense that for us US people, a B is equivalent to a grade anywhere from 80% to 89% (at least in most cases). Here it varies slightly by class, but a B in 601 is a grade anywhere from 76% to 79.5%. That may make it sound “easier” to get a B, but compared to US grading, they’re quite a bit tougher up here. Both UWO and UBC were like that, too.

**I definitely know I’m the only incoming US stats student, and I’m pretty sure I’m the only US stats student in the entire department right now, too.

End!

Okay, NOW I am officially done with the semester! Turned in my final paper and the corresponding data and R code. My grade will be what it will be—there’s nothing I can do to influence it now.

I also went on a nice 13-mile walk, which was especially awesome considering the fact that I have basically walked ZERO miles over the past week due to all the panic.

I wonder if the end-of-semester sadness is going to kick in this year. I haven’t felt it over the past few semesters, but who knows. That used to hit me really hard, man. Especially in the summer.

I should distract myself by packing. Instead, I’m going to distract myself by playing Quake. Non-semester mode, ACTIVATE!

(Sorry I’m so boring.)

My anaconda don’t want Huns unless we got Mulan, son

I am DONE with this semester!

Well, almost. I gave my final presentation in 601 today, but I still have to turn in my paper by the 15th. No big deal, though, ‘cause it’s already about 97% written.

So have some Ray to celebrate, because Ray is awesome.

Relief (sort of)

So this morning was the final for STAT 701.

(And I accidentally went to the wrong room at first because I totally forgot our final was in a different room than our normal one. Oops.)

It…it wasn’t as bad as I was expecting, actually. There were a few super specific questions, but there were also questions that were very similar to the questions on our previous midterms.

So yeah. Now all I can do is wait for my grade and hope that I did well enough.

But that’s a huuuuuuuuuuge stress gone, at least. Now all I have to do is worry about my 601 project, which I’m really not too concerned about, since it’s just analyzing some data and then presenting said analysis, which is something I love doing, especially since I get to make a POWERPOINT!

(I love PowerPoint.)

Right now, however, all I’m going to do is go home and rock out to music for the rest of the evening.

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