What proportion of praying mantises are atheists?
SCREW YOU depression, I’m trying to be a functioning adult.
Didn’t go work out this morning. Instead, curled up in bed and cried for two hours.
I wonder how many calories despair burns.
I also forgot to pack my broccoli/hummus for snackies at work, though, so maybe that’ll balance some of it out.
Stupid.
Not even watching the new Metalocalypse episode (once I finally dragged myself out of bed) cheered me up, even though it had the most badass ending ever.
Blah.
Maybe posting old recently-discovered pictures from senior prom would cheer me up?

(Me, Amy, E’raina, Tanna, and Aneel, left to right, on my back porch)

(Amy had so many wardrobe issues that night)

(I lost approximately 10 pounds of glitter off that dress while dancing that night and yet it still sheds excessively)
Meh. Aneel in a martini apron is still pretty awesome.
Phoenix!
So today my mom and I drove up to Phoenix to see MATT! It was super awesome to see him again, especially considering I hadn’t seen him since December 2010. Too bad it was like 400 degrees or else we might have been able to walk farther and maybe would have found a park or something to swing/screw around.
Anyway, YAY! Matt, I hope you had an uneventful flight home, and hopefully I’ll see you (and other Moscow friends) in a month or so!
For once, I am *legitimately* upset.
Well, hell.
Just got some pretty crappy news from one of my best friends ever.
Not their fault, of course, but still pretty crappy, considering…well, a lot of things.
Blughrsfhrhgehrhghhh.
Sadness is so much worse when it’s coming from outside your own self-misery, eh?
(Haha, wow, emo)
Dream Factory
So last night I had a dream about Coos.
Coos are these:
Coos were a Coos were beings my friend G.E. and I came up with in kindergarten and developed over the course of a couple years in elementary school. When we became these different beings, we entered into this entire kingdom/social structure we had developed along with them. He was king, I was queen. At the height of the Coo’s popularity, we had practically our entire first grade class (22/23 kids) plus a lot of kids from 2nd and 3rd grade.
My and G.E.’s popularity paralleled that of our game (though it certainly wasn’t a game to us; it was life).
And then came the inevitable decline. I remember the exact moment things went wrong and I could recite it minute-for-minute to you as if it happened yesterday, but I’m not going to. It’s a very depressing memory and I don’t feel like going into my little pit of despair today, so let’s just skip over it.
In the end, the popularity of Coos began to decline after its height in first grade. By the time fourth grade was over, I was the only true Coo left. But regardless of their relatively short-lived existence (though I guess four grades is a LONG time to a little kid), Coos were an impactful part of my life. I’d written over 10 journals’ worth of stories about them, three or so 70-page “novels” about them, and had a myriad million art projects surrounding them (I even made a big 3D one out of clay once).
I don’t think about them often, mainly because I’m rarely (if ever) in contact with anyone who WAS a Coo way back in the ‘90s (holy freaking crap, I sound old now). So it was strange to dream about them.
Strange indeed.
WOOSH
Yay, social time!
During TA Day last week (or whenever the hell that was), I happened to sit within a cluster of economics grad students. I talked to one of them for a bit, then I didn’t see any of them for a week or so. The other day, though, the guy I talked to (George) caught up with me while I was walking back to the dorm and it turns out that he lives almost directly above me two floors. He invited me up for tea this afternoon, so I went up there and we raved about Fallout and Metalocalypse and Dostoyevsky and our past college experiences. He went to Yale. He’s super smart.
He’s also from THE Moscow (Russia), which I think is pretty freaky.
AND his dad has a PhD in soil science, like my dad. How freaking weird is that?
Haha, okay, that’s all. It’s my first social encounter since leaving Moscow, what do you want from me?
Nostalgia, go away
I am so ridiculously homesick right now it’s scary.
I’m a solitary person, but I’m not a fan of being completely alone for months on end.
I’m tired of this dumb thesis, I’m tired of this dumb city, and I just want one day free of anxiety attacks.
I’m also freezing cold right now and can’t concentrate.
Is 2011 kicking my ass? It’s certainly trying to.
Sorry my blogs suck.
Sorry I suck.
Woo!
YAY DORKY FRIENDS!
You guys are super fun. I’m glad we could all hang out one last time before I ditch the wondrous United States for the frigid north.
And the Leibniz-Newton slash? NEEDS TO HAPPEN. I’m going to have some interesting dreams tonight.
Today’s song: Swoon by Imogen Heap
So…out of it…
I forgot how awesome you Moscow friends are. We need to have a Rock Band party.
And I need to take my meds at a different time of day.
That is all.
Today’s song: The Underdog by Spoon
Bangkok
Apples to Apples with you guys is superior to Apples to Apples with the grad school crowd. Much more sexual innuendo (though fewer “who invented calculus” arguments). If I hadn’t been feeling like death as soon as I got to the park, the walk to Matt’s would have been much more pleasant, but what are you gonna do?
I’ll miss you all.
Today’s song: Change of Seasons by Sweet Thing
Friends rock
Holy crap, I love you guys. Who needs therapy when you can sit in a dark car with three awesome friends and have a bitch fest about how much all of our lives suck? I’m keeping those videos forever.
Yay.
Today’s song: Where I’m Going by Cut Copy
“I just realized I’m illiterate and now I cacng apbtrtht kd thactgs”
WOOOOOOOOOO it’s been awhile since I’ve danced! Maggie, we missed you!
I’ve also been up for a few days and had to do a garage sale this morning, so my brain wasn’t really working. It was also somewhat awkward since I got felt up by some drunk guy during the first half of the first show (“yer sho frrruckkkkhing bootifull!!!!”) and then I saw Jessica (Rob’s old girlfriend) and had a super weird conversation with her. I think she was there with someone else, though, so that’s good.
Yay for fun times with friends. More Rock Band/alcohol/naked parties need to happen in my basement before I return to Finland. :)
Today’s song: Sleepyhead (Matt Sweeny Remix) by Passion Pit
The United States is a GEEZER
Haha, yay for 4th of July shenanigans. I didn’t take many pictures, but here are a few videos of us being rad.
I love how every time I come back here I make new friends.
Today’s song: Practice Makes Perfect by Cute Is What We Aim For
She Deafened Me with Pseudoscience!
I’m starting to loathe Saturday nights. And I was actually going to post yesterday’s blog, you know, yesterday, but MySpace was being dumb.
Either way, our little “group” went to Kharah’s last night and played a bunch of games (and made a lot of stupid jokes) and shared a bunch of cheese. Welcome to grad school.
Haha, and Michael and I got into an argument over who invented calculus, it was pretty freaking awesome. How come the only cute, pudgy blonde guy I’ve met up here is a proponent of Newton?
Guess you can’t win them all.
And I think I found my Script Frenzy plot.
AND I finished the drawing of Matt. Matt, do you mind if I post it to my DeviantArt page? That way you can actually see it, haha. I can leave your name off of it if you’d prefer.
AND AND this.
Today’s song: You Belong by Northern Kind
What today entailed:
– Canadian taxes!
– Making Matt sit and wait for me to finish Canadian taxes
– Going downtown to try and find the torch
– Noticing a FREAKING LAPTOP on the train tracks
– Trying to find a way to get said laptop
– Taking DA SKY TRAIN
– Taking DA SKY TRAIN in DA WRONG DIRECTION towards DA END OF DA TRACKS!
– Lots of walking around trying to find the torch
– Finding out the torch was now inside and going to Granville Island instead
– “So come on, come on and doooooo the locomotion with meeeee!”
– ROCK BAND
– PORTAL
– Matt getting REALLY into Burnout Paradise (seriously, this was great)
Hooray for Matt being in Vancouver!
Today’s song: I’m Gone, I’m Going by Lesley Roy
A Moscow friend in Vancouver? My head asplode
And today is a short blog because all we did was dink around.
Edit: and see little kids talk about St. Patrick’s Day puke.
Happy birthday, Aaron!
Today’s song: Yuudachi by Hiromitsu Agatsuma
“Robo-Puppy commencing two-hour yipping session!”
YAY DRAG SHOW, it’s been way too long. I missed all of you awesome people.
I also missed Shari’s.
I especially missed going to Shari’s with all of you awesome people (+ new friend Nathan!).
I knew I should have brought Claude’s clothes, but by the time the taxi came, it was 4 AM and I’d completely forgotten to pack them. Sorry y’all.
Anyway, it was super fun. We need to hang out again before I leave!
Today’s song: Dancer by Woodhands


