As I do every time I hit my NaNoWriMo minimum of 50,000 words at the end of November, I immediately stop giving a crap about the thing I was working on and tuck it away to either a) not be looked at until like half a year has passed or b) not be looked at ever.

I was not too enthused about my story this year, but after taking a week or so away from it, I think it’s actually something that I could refine and make into an actual coherent story of sorts—one that, assuming a miracle occurs and I am suddenly granted with the ability to write well, I’d like to try to do something with. Publish it or something.

(Wild dreams, I know.)

Getting something I’ve written published has actually been one of my dreams since I was in like first grade and was writing all those coo stories. But I’m terrible at writing and everybody wants to get published and what the hell chance do I have anyway with the garbage story ideas I come up with anyway?

But at least this year’s project might actually work as a thing.

Prime (2009) is a cool little story, I think, but until I figure out the tone in which I want it told, it’s staying hidden.

Googol (2010) would immediately get me sued. Even if I changed the name of the company in question in the story, it would still be bad news, I think.

(We won’t talk about 2011 and 2012.)

Arborhood (2014) is one that miiight be workable, but I’m not sure. Right now there’s way too much exposition.

Earth’s Edge (2017) became character-driven very quickly, but at the expense of the whole main point of the story. There’s really no reason for them to be doing what the whole story was set up for them to be doing, so yeah. I really liked my characters, though.

But this year’s story? Possibly workable.

Maybe that will motivate me to, you know…work on it.