[Blogger’s note: this one got lost somehow and never got posted when it was originally supposed to!]
For whatever the hell reason, tonight I decided it would be a good idea to go back and look at my old MSN Messenger chat logs from a few years ago. The ones I spent most of my time reading were the ones between Jessica (Rob’s ex (maybe?????) girlfriend at the time) and myself. Most of these were during the time between my first date with Rob and my second date with Rob.
And you know what I’ve learned from re-reading these? Three main things:
- Good lord, that girl needed therapy.
- I used to be Captain Pushover.
- Present Day Claudia would not have put up with this garbage for nearly as long.
That last point makes me feel really good, actually. I mean, look at some of this vitriolic nonsense. I’m glad I wouldn’t stand for this crap anymore. Jessica’s in blue; I’m in red.
I’m not trying to make you feel bad… just I think I’m going to wind up loosing him to you
But why do you want to have a relationship with him???
I wish things weren’t like this
then how do you wish they were?
Easier, I don’t know
easier on who or for who??? HUH?
It almost sounds like he wants you to have a relationship with him how you’re saying it
Well, he does, I think…
He asked me on the date, after all, and he asked me on another afterwards…
Did he not tell you any of this?
I already know about the date on Friday
Just go do what you want
So had you guys really not discussed this, is that why you both went off for about an hour?
just forget it go do what you want
Well…I still feel very bad…
Forget it I give up I’m leaving you alone go on with your god damn life!
WHat the hell are you telling rob now?
MOre shit to make him mad?
I hate talking about you and ROb….
Well, then we don’t have to talk about it
It’s what’s bothering me most right now anyway
oh and I really don’t think highly of you
but you shouldn’t care what I think got it?
What are you up to other than talking to Rob?
Not too much
What about you?
Being a mess
Anything I can do?
I’d get Rob pissed at me
YOu know that
Then I’ll stop asking
Cause my answer would be is don’t fall in love with Rob
got it chickie?
I just don’t like how often you and Rob are having dates
Well, the one on Friday will only be our second
SIck of me huh?
I wonder who you’re hiding from… you okay kid?
This is all I”m going to say
I hate that you like him that he likes you and that you two want to have a relationship
Why do you like Rob?
I won’t bite I’m sorry
But do you really know how much of an asshole he is ?
YOu also made out with him how about that? Was that his choice too?
A guy probably isn’t going to say no to an idea like that…
He initiated it
Or rather, it was kind of a mutual initiation
YOu two live in a fucked up little world
I fucking hate you
He’s got problems he won’t deal with he’s scared of trying….
He won’t talk to me anymore
I HATE YOU
YOu ruined fucking Pi day
You ruined it!
But it was his decision to tell you everything that night, I said nothing about anything regarding that
YOu didn’t cause that fucking decision?
I didn’t tell him to say anything, if that’s what you mean
What did you say to him?
I didn’t say anything
He told me he was going to do it, and he did it
But you made him break a promise
When he’d be back
I asked him if he needed to get back, and he said no
No no let’s go get food let’s go make out…
you’re toying with his feelings
I really hate you
I hope your relationship goes to hell I really do
You make me feel very depressed
That whole Rob relationship was toxic. Every bit of it. Ick.