So today’s topic has been on my mind for awhile, and since I have nothing else that’s dying to be said today, I felt like I could just talk about it now.
At the beginning of last semester I gave the link to my blog to a newly acquired friend (said friend: I don’t know if you still read this, but if you are, you probably know what I’m going to talk about, haha). They read a few pages and came back to me the next day saying that the whole blog felt rather pointless.
Understandably, this rather quick judgment had me kind of miffed. But then I realized that they probably saw my blog as pointless because they’re just looking at the surface of it.
And at the surface, it is pretty pointless. I mean really, there’s not much else here apart from surveys, crappy art, crappy rants, internet stuff, and me obsessing about school/stats/Leibniz/other such things.
But I’ve kept this blog since 2006. That means that I’ve blogged from my last month in high school up until now. That’s about 7.5 years now. That’s a long freaking time, especially when it comes to keeping up a daily routine. And there are a lot of reasons why I’ve decided to keep the routine of blogging and why this blog may seem, at the surface, “pointless.”
- I use this blog to get out some of the extra noise in my head. Doing so may take the form of a rant, a reflection, a discussion about school, whatever. Writing it out just helps to clear some of the clutter.
- I use this blog to post some of my creative things: my writing, my drawings, my “songs.” However crappy they are, I do like to get them out there somewhere.
- I use this blog to talk about my passions. Not a lot of my friends like the things I like. It’s hard to find someone to sit down with and rave about statistics. It’s hard to find someone to quote Achievement Hunter with (actually, since I don’t know anyone in person who’s a fan of them, I can’t really find anyone to do this with) or who will talk about how wonderful Leibniz is. I talk about my passions here because if I didn’t, I’d never get to talk about them at all.
- I use this blog to retain my sanity. I had practically no friends in Vancouver, no friends in London, no friends in Tucson, and very few friends now that I’m back in Moscow. I know it sounds cheesy, but just having somewhere where I could get words out into the public (even if that public was the vast, disinterested internet) made those times manageable.
- I use this blog to record my life. It’s not all of my life by any means, but it’s a decent chunk of it. I can’t count the number of times I’ve been able to use my blog to go back and find the specific date or dates of something important or something school-related. I love having a record of things, and that’s what this blog is.
So yeah. On the surface, all my posts (or at least the vast majority of them) are probably pretty meaningless. But they mean something to me. They’re part of me. And I’m okay with it if you don’t want to read it.
Just please don’t think of it as pointless, because it most certainly is not.
I may royally suck at actually posting these things, but I do write them on the days I specify. In the nearly 4 ½ years I’ve been blogging, I don’t think I’ve ever explained exactly why I do it.
When I started blogging back in 2006, I made it my goal to blog daily—a goal I didn’t think I’d ever follow through with. My first 6 or so months of blogs were 99% crap, and—admittedly—they’re still mostly crap, but maybe only 80% or 85% crap now. I guess I started with the intention to have someplace to just ramble, but my blogs have sort of morphed themselves into a little external depository for all the extra crap running around in my head. Some of which is interesting, some of which is not.
Therefore, there’s no quantity vs. quality debate here. I completely admit that my blogs sacrifice quality for quantity. Some people claim that as one of the cardinal sins of internet writing, but I submit that the internet wouldn’t be the internet if people didn’t post crap with no content. I also think that letting things “flow” rather than just restricting oneself to post only when one has a perfectly polished entry is a lot more constructive, relaxing, and hilarious in the long-run.
So where am I going with this? I guess I’m just saying that I blog to blog. I blog to remain (arguably) sane. I share components of my life with the internet world, but I don’t do it because I expect the internet world to care. I really don’t care if people read these. It’s nice to know that some people do, and I’d be totally thrilled if some day a complete stranger commented and said they’d been reading on and off for awhile, but that’s not why I blog.
I blog because doing so has become part of me. I do it so I can have a written history of life and my progress through it, however random and non-focused many of the entries are.
So yeah, I guess that’s it.
I blog because…I blog.
Today’s song: Crazy (Violin Cover) by Jimmy Chaos