Wondering…
Does anyone else ever wonder whether or not they’ve changed extremely since the beginning of school (preschool, kindergarten)? I have thought of these things for quite a few years now, and I’ve always wondered. Of course, none of you have known me for that long, and I don’t have contact with anyone who has.
So I asked my mom. She said that I used to be more social (I don’t remember this) and that I used to have more self-confidence (I don’t remember this, either.
I think that I have much more self-confidence then people think…I just feel that if I’m not the best person in the world in something, then I’m just not worth too much. Always strive for the best, right?
Well, the good thing was that my mom didn’t think that I’ve conformed to fit society’s “norms” and that peer pressure hasn’t really gotten to me.
Just a bunch of reminiscing about things past. Hm…
Do you guys wonder about this stuff?
Just living life
I have Type A personality. Very much so. So my decision today to just live life in the moment this summer (for what’s left of it anyway), goes against everything I stand for.
But I think it’s a good thing. This’ll be my last free summer, considering I’ll be getting a job (finally) and going to college. Therefore, I just want to relax for these next few weeks before I dive head-on into an intense year of college and an intense life. My book can wait, my attempt to build a perpetual motion machine can wait, and my goal to create a new governmental system can wait.
I’m just going to relax, make a few Lego movies, lay around…those kind of things.
Yay.
Thinking about the infinite
That’s all I’ve got to say…very profound stuff.
Oh, and the senior party sucked…at least in my opinion. Really boring.
Meh.
Fear, questions, and a whole lot of “WTF?”
Weird things have occurred today, and I don’t really know how to explain them. Quick summary:
1) Something happened (not an actual event–just a feeling) when I was walking the dog tonight that made me think that I was put on the earth to change it. For the better or for the worse, I don’t know yet.
2) Relationships scare the hell out of me. I cannot make commitments, and I admit that. But I feel like such a pompous, arrogant loser when I seem to blow people off. The truth is, I’m afraid of people.
3) I am unlikeable, but for what reasons, I don’t know. I already knew this, but it became even clearer today.
That’s about all I can say. Hm.
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