It’s because I’m bored, shut up
Love/ Relationship survey
-Longest relationship
About 6 months
-Shortest relationship:
Officially? Like 3 weeks
-How many people have you broken up with?
That I have broken up with? One
-How many times have you truly been in love?
Once
-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you?
All three. I wonder what that says.
-Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?
Not seriously
-Have you ever loved/liked someone so much that it hurt?
Yes
-Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
Inadvertently
-Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend?
Yeah
-Are you happier single or in a relationship?
I’m very happy in the relationship I’m in now
-Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend?
No comment
-Have you ever been cheated on?
Not sure
-What is your favorite thing about the opposite sex?
Them. :)
-What is the best part of being in a relationship?
Making the other person laugh, making their day better
-What is the worst part of being in a relationship?
Knowing that it will end, eventually
-Worst relationship?
Not going to say
-Have you ever had your heart broken?
Eh
-Have you ever broken someones heart?
Apparently
-Do you talk to any of your exes?
I talk to Matt a lot. I try to talk to Rob…
-What is the most mushy romantic thing you or your partner have done or given to a girlfriend or boyfriend?
Aaron bought me flowers and a bunch of fun things from the dollar store and had them sitting on my bed when I got back from Hawaii with a note.
-If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your exes, would you?
No
-Do you think any of your exes feel the same way?
I don’t know anymore. Probably
-What is your ideal boyfriend or girlfriend?
No ideals. They disappoint.
-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
I freaking hope so. I try to be
-Have you dated people who were not good to you?
Pah
-Have you been in an abusive relationship?
Nope
-Name your 2 most memorable exes if you have had 2:
I’ve only had two.
-Have you ever had sex with someone just so that they would stay with you?
Hahaha, do you know who I am?
-Have you ever had sexual fantasies about one of your exes?
Nope.
-Have you dated someone older then you?
Yup
-Younger?
Yup
-What is one thing that all of your exes had in common?
Um…they both went by one syllable names when their full names were two syllables? They also both liked to argue about phlegm consistency.
-Say, who is the most attractive ex that you have ever dated?
Matt’s pretty hot, not gonna lie
-Have you ever done anything sexual in front of your parents?
Nope
-In the movies?
Nope
-Do you regret anything that you have done with a boyfriend or girlfriend ?
I regret a lot of things
-Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or girlfriend?
Awhile ago
-When is the last time that you were in a relationship?
I’m in one now
-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yes
-Believe in love at first sight?
Nah
-Ever dated two people at once?
Nope, avoided that one a few times
-What’s the perfect date?
The orgy couch. The orgy couch is the perfect date
-Ever been given a promise ring?
Nope
-Do you want to get married?
No idea
-Do you have something to say to any of your exes?
“Hi”
-Ever stolen someones boyfriend or girlfriend?
Um…that’s a really complicated question
-Ever liked someone elses boyfriend or girlfriend?
Nope
-Do you believe in true love?
Sure, why not?
-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
It blows, yeah
-Do you think that you will/or have found the love of your life?
If this isn’t it, it’s pretty damn close
You know what?
I have never been so happy being with a person in my entire life. I love touching him, holding him, kissing him, trying to do little things to help him out, all that good stuff.
Long term potential = nearly zero, but we both know that, so it’s okay. He’s awesome. And I’m not looking forward to leaving next fall. It already makes me very, very sad.
That is all.
“u cant blog ur a silly grl lol”
I’m not afraid of a lot of things. In fact, I can basically list all my fears right here:
1. failure
2. touching TV screens when the TV’s on
3. dragonflies
But now that I’ve thought about it, I can add another fear to the list: the fear of being perceived as needy/clingy/overbearing/too touchy-feely in a romantic relationship.
Elaboration? Well, of course, it’s me talking, here.
So a prompt for one of my developmental psychology papers got me to thinking on this topic. Our paper was on attachment styles when we were young children. Rather than go into the details on the three attachment styles (secure, avoidant, anxious), I’ll just say that I was an anxious type, which is basically a child who is very clingy toward the mother figure, who dislikes when the mother leaves them alone, and who cries when they are alone for a long while. Our prompt was to write about how our early on attachment style affected our attachment style today. This got me thinking—when I started to go to preschool, I was always made fun of for being close to my mom, for wanting to be near her. I was that way, all through elementary school up until today, and I’d always gotten made fun of for it.
The more I think about it, the more this kind of made me want to back off in relationships (well, this and the fact that every relationship I’d ever tried to initiate ended up being a one-sided “chase”—don’t even ask).
Now don’t get me wrong—I love the physical side of relationships—touching, petting, kissing, rubbing—I freaking love that. I’m just afraid, I guess, of “going too fast” and being perceived as clingy or needy or any of that, so I just hold back.
I think this is a problem, because it basically leaves me with two options:
1) hold back, and hope the other person doesn’t think I’m not “into it”
2) essentially tell them this whole blog, and probably freak them out.
So this is where I am. I never know the appropriate “level,” hence my constant need for the other person to make the first moves and to lay out the framework of what they’re comfortable with, because honestly, I can be just as distant or clingy as anyone wants.
Please note that I do not find this “clinginess” quality unappealing in others. I find it very, very awesome, in fact. A “turn on,” if you will. I just wonder how many other people are in my situation regarding this…?
So yeah. There was really no point in this, I just felt like rambling about it ’cause it’s Saturday and I really have nothing of interest to blog about.
So you all must suffer. MUA-HA-HA!
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