Screw it.
No blog today, due to my feeling totally like crap. Sorry to disappoint—it seems to be the only thing I’ve been good at doing lately.
Son of a…
Yeah. So I gave in and went back to something I desperately wanted to stop. I’m a stupid little weakling. I’m damn pissed about it, so try to avoid bringing up the subject of it (that is, if you know what I’m talking about). Thanks.
Just living life
I have Type A personality. Very much so. So my decision today to just live life in the moment this summer (for what’s left of it anyway), goes against everything I stand for.
But I think it’s a good thing. This’ll be my last free summer, considering I’ll be getting a job (finally) and going to college. Therefore, I just want to relax for these next few weeks before I dive head-on into an intense year of college and an intense life. My book can wait, my attempt to build a perpetual motion machine can wait, and my goal to create a new governmental system can wait.
I’m just going to relax, make a few Lego movies, lay around…those kind of things.
Yay.
Fear, questions, and a whole lot of “WTF?”
Weird things have occurred today, and I don’t really know how to explain them. Quick summary:
1) Something happened (not an actual event–just a feeling) when I was walking the dog tonight that made me think that I was put on the earth to change it. For the better or for the worse, I don’t know yet.
2) Relationships scare the hell out of me. I cannot make commitments, and I admit that. But I feel like such a pompous, arrogant loser when I seem to blow people off. The truth is, I’m afraid of people.
3) I am unlikeable, but for what reasons, I don’t know. I already knew this, but it became even clearer today.
That’s about all I can say. Hm.
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