So.

Due to multiple reasons (some health-related, some family-related, some money-related), I have been without a solid plan for my near/intermediate future for approximately 7 months now.  Being without said plan has been slowly destroying my will to live.

So I’m sick of it.

But now I’m conflicted over what to do. There aren’t any stats jobs in Tucson or in the surrounding area. In fact, around the country there are very few entry-level stats jobs. Even for freaking PhD students…everyone’s looking for statisticians with like 10+ years of experience (not exaggerating).

So here’s how I see it: I’m the type of person who either needs to be in a field where I can obsess over doing stuff I love (read: statistics), or I need to be acquiring more knowledge in some sort of full-time or at least mostly-full-time type of environment.

So if a job isn’t happening at the moment, what’s left?

SCHOOL!

I guess I was never really conflicted about that. I pretty much figured I’d return to school someday because that’s just the type of person I am. So what’s the conflict?

Do I…

A) Stay down here and go to school at my place of employment, Pima Community College (it’s too late to register for the University of Arizona, I don’t have THAT much money, and I’m still technically an out-of-state resident so $$$$$$$$!),

or…

B) Go back to the black hole that is Moscow and play out my dream schedule for fall (I’m already enrolled and set for tuition payments).

Pros for Option A

• Not having to move again
• Still in the same city as my mom, which is a big deal to both of us
• Cheap as hell; totally tuition-free if I keep working there
• SCHOOL!

Cons for Option A

• Tucson is…blah.
• PCC doesn’t have a lot of *advanced* classes, which is where I am in a lot of stuff pertaining to my education (except calc…I’d like to review basic calc until it makes perfect sense in my head).
• If I were to transfer to UA, again, $$$$$$$$$!
• I’d probably have to keep my current job. It’s an okay job, but it’s not ideal.

Pros for Option B

• Dream schedule! Seriously. It’s awesome.
• My dad’s like “rent-free living in the basement if you take care of the house while I’m gone” (which would be for approximately 33% of the year, maybe a little more now). I also think he’s lonely.
• MY KITTY CAT IS THERE OMFG I MISS HER
• It’s the U of I, meaning that I know that damn school inside and out and can get exactly what I want out of it

Cons for Option B

• Moscow is…Moscow.
• I’d have to live with my dad. I shouldn’t put this as a con because he’s offering free rent (shut up, selfish brain, shut up!), but if you’ve ever lived with my dad, you’d totally understand this point.
• Moving. AGAIN.
• Being away from my mom. We’re close, shut up.

So yeah. I have no idea what I’ll do. Plus, if I go back, I’ll have to face all the “I thought you were in grad school?” questions, to which I’ll have to answer “I was, and I’m done, but…” And we all know how judgmental people are.

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