WHAT
Holy hell, I got an A in Computer Science?
Holy hell, I got A’s in everything this semester??
(This is totally a Tumblr post disguised as a legit blog entry. I apologize.)
Alright, so here’s the deal:
We’ve all seen the posts on Tumblr/Facebook/wherever that say “You are more than your grades.”
Yeah, yeah, yeah. For most people, that’s true.
But not for me.
I get a lot of crap for putting so much importance on my grades. “It really doesn’t matter what grades you get,” people say. “Past college, no one gives a crap.”
I know that, okay?
But I still put practically all of my self-worth into the grades I get. Why? Because I have no other redeemable qualities as a human being.
I suck at pretty much everything. I’m not pretty. I’m not funny. I have major anger issues. I’m not a good conversationalist. I have no original thoughts. I’m lazy. I’m messy. I have no close friends. I can’t even make friends anymore. I doubt I’ll ever be in a relationship again. I have horrible, self-destructive habits that also hurt others. I’m selfish. I’m negative. I’m uninteresting. I’m just…not a good person. But I’m pretty damn good at school.
So that’s where I focus my attention. That’s where I put all my worth, because that’s the only thing I’ve really got.
So yeah.
I don’t know why I had the sudden urge to make that declaration. Probably because I’m having yet another “stupid night” and I needed to either vent or go run into traffic.
Either way. I really don’t care anymore.
We’ve all seen the posts on Tumblr/Facebook/wherever that say “You are more than your grades.”
Yeah, yeah, yeah. For most people, that’s true.
But not for me.
I get a lot of crap for putting so much importance on my grades.
“It really doesn’t matter what grades you get,” people say. “Past college, no one gives a crap.”
I know that, okay?
But I still put practically all of my self-worth into the grades I get.
Why?
Because I have no other redeemable qualities as a human being.
I suck at pretty much everything. I’m not pretty. I’m not funny. I have major anger issues. I’m not a good conversationalist. I have no original thoughts. I’m lazy. I’m messy. I have no close friends. I can’t even make friends anymore. I doubt I’ll ever be in a relationship again. I have horrible, self-destructive habits that also hurt others. I’m selfish. I’m negative. I’m uninteresting. I’m just…not a good person.
But I’m pretty damn good at school.
So that’s where I focus my attention. That’s where I put all my worth, because that’s the only thing I’ve really got.
So yeah.
I don’t know why I had the sudden urge to make that declaration. Probably because I’m having yet another “stupid night” and I needed to either vent or go run into traffic.
Either way. I really don’t care anymore.
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Graaaaaaaaaaaades
So I think my calculus II test scores are the first few terms of an infinite alternating series that converges to 95.
Those of you who remember your tests grades: did yours ever follow a particular pattern? Depending on how many tests are scheduled for a class in a semester, I get the following patterns:
Two tests:
Test 1: High A
Test 2: High A
Three tests:
Test 1: Moderate A
Test 2: Low A
Test 3: High A
Four tests:
Test 1: Moderate A
Test 2: High A
Test 3: Low A
Test 4: High A
(and if there’s a fifth test as a final, then I usually do okay on that one)
Linear Algebra was the exception to this…I just had all Bs in place of the As and that’s why that’s been the ONE CLASS in which I haven’t gotten an A.
It’s the world “algebra,” man. We still don’t get along.
END!
Yayz!
HA.
4.0.
I still got it.
And yes, it matters to me. I’ll probably be going to grad school again (as much as I’m hesitant about it), so grades are important.
I give myself a banana sticker.
Huh…wouldn’t have guess this
StumbleUpon brought me to Wikipedia’s page on the “Latin honors” for college degrees. Not only did I find out Australia has two different levels of failure (off the “grade” page…and here I must interject: “WTF, mate?”), but the “see also” section also provided me with this.
I found this rather interesting, considering that for the majority of colleges, the U of I’s cutoff points for summa/magna/cum laude are higher than all of these listed. Maybe ‘cause UI is such a small school (SMALL SAMPLE SIZE = RANGE RESTRICTION) they felt the need to have such high cutoff points…who knows.
Haha, sorry, I like this kind of stuff. Had they provided more colleges, I would have made some sort of map to see how the different regions of the US compared in honors cutoffs. Bah.
Also this, ‘cause I found it freakishly funny (and interesting), especially since they were all cracking up the entire time:
Today’s song: Echo by Girls Can’t Catch
Damn you, Linear Algebra
SO CLOSE. I was SO CLOSE to getting another 4.0 this semester.
But no.
Because I’m stupid.
At least 3.98 is still above the summa cum laude cutoff.
WHAT
Holy shit.
I don’t know how, I don’t know why, and I don’t know by whose power, but somehow I managed to get a 4.0 this semester.
So I got what I have been working for so hard these past five semesters. I finished college with a 4.0. I feel slightly proud of myself for the first time since starting at this stupid school.
It was worth it. It was worth all the stress. I’ve never been happier in my life.
Rock on.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALONGTITLEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
So…fall semester?
Scaring the hell out of me right now. I’ve come to the realization that this will be my last “important” semester here, and if I screw things up now I’ll lose my 4.0 in the final stretch.
That’s more terrifying than it sounds, trust me.
Enter freak-out mode.
Yay, people!!
Woohoo!
4.0!
I’m so freaking happy right now. The stress at the end was totally worth it. Take that, 400-level stats classes! Take that, Symbolic Logic! Take that, all you people who didn’t think I could do it!
Yay.
